As I fight to regain my hospice coverage, while an emotional shooting range, I tried to use a strategy I outlined in Episode 30 on "game theory" in real life, and come to interesting results.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Be forewarned, this podcast will truly test your patience and ability to listen to my incessant rants. But, as Virgil once said, "All things can be mastered through endurance." So it is true here as well! Although I discuss "game theory," I can demonstrate that it applies also to real life, and it leaves me with a very dark, but perhaps unmoving, c…

I fight for my rights to receive treatment needed to stay alive for as long as I can, despite a terrible event exercised by what can only be described as a sociopathic entity.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Further updates to my long battle for my hospice rights and care. If you, or someone you know is in hospice, pondering hospice, or similar situation, this podcast may be quite useful. Or not. You get what pay for, after-all. Your current balance due is zero. Although, I would accept a real large goose egg. That'd make my day. Dunno why.--- Support …

The day I utmost feared has now come and passed. With it, some fears, but new challenges present themselves. Gee.... just like every other day in life!--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Many things have changed in recent weeks, very suddenly, and not giving much hope. The quote used in the title here, I use with hope that I too am as mistaken as Frederick.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

While I provide weekly updates as best I can, I think it's prudent to take a step back, and observe how my condition has changed over the past months or even years. Some observations may be surprising.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

After planning a podcast topic this week, I was thwarted at the last moment by an unfortunate event. It's high time I provide the necessary disclaimer: I'm a freak of nature.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Well, I finally got what I've been asking my hospice team for, for many years. Blood work. I didn't get all of the results that I wanted, but what I did get is not unlike being pardoned for your planned execution by quartering, but rather being told you merely only have to endure abacination.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/…

In this podcast I find myself struggling with anger, which has been tearing me down for years. I need to thwart this anger, and not turn to savagery.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've learned one important thing in my life, and that is to say what you need to say to others when you can. It's not only good best practice, but an obligation we all have.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I dared to have a short conversation with someone who seems to cherish and love their drama and victimhood. How they responded surprised me.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I explore recent issues where I find myself lamenting the loss of my own identity. I question if I need to redefine myself, or has that not really changed?--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I originally planned to not record any podcasts during the holidays, but had to squeeze one in after hearing perhaps the most naive and asinine theistic phrase for the entire previous year.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I'm normally quite "the Grinch" or "Scrooge" this time of year. But, even with physical problems, I seemed to find heaps of laughter and joy. It's not too hard to find. My secret; I'm too lazy to be sad or angry for more than a couple days.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

I had a conversation with a hospice nurse I never met before, and she asked how could I be at peace with death. I couldn't give any abbreviated answer, but here is my subsequent attempt to do so.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I share three impactful moments in my life that are prime examples of ableism, a concept I long shunned because it sounded silly to me. But moreover, I resisted any labeling that may cast me as a "victim." Well, I was wrong. Very wrong.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

In the episode published close to Thanksgiving, I share a different perspective that I have formulated over the years where having gratitude does not stop at the end of positive experiences.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

A continuation of my last podcast, where I try to address the emotional issues that I experience in my long decline with Congestive Heart Failure.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

When I begun this podcast some time ago, I composed an episode of what it's like to die of congestive heart failure (CHF). Having now been several years into this long transition, I think this topics could be more accurately addressed today.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

Despite worsening health issues, which I will discuss with some brevity, I wanted to share the details of those who I adore with all my heart and who, even now, is the best part of my life.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

We all have this occasional feelings if miss opportunities, and "what ifs" - how we may have missed a chance to improve our lives, even if fleeting. I had such a moment recently, but here I share how I have, actually, made the right choices in life.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

I abhor victimization, and have never fallen into the trap of relinquishing that power over my happiness to others. Despite fleeting temptation, don't do this. And I'll explain why.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

A new health scare has reared its ugly head, and I need to somehow find out what it even is. Also, I need to brush up my Welsh.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

In a recent conversation with my hospice nurse, she asked particular questions that got me thinking. Specifically, am I "spiritual" or is there a better word?--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

In this podcast I provide a short health update, and then do my part to never forget a horrific event. Did you forget?--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

As I struggle to keep my life moving and facing terrible fatigue, I must find a way to be at peace with how I live today, to be able to accept whatever may come tomorrow.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Changes within my body in recent weeks have been mostly good, only some bad, but all of it is utterly confusing.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

After the trials and tribulations of the past few months, I've faced an arduous task of rebuilding and returning to my normal, boring life. Sometimes you don't realize the value of something, until it's lost.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Yet again, after all the bad events in my life, the enduring potty pad saga continues. This time it includes a visit from the police!--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Where have I been for the last month or so? Unfortunately, nowhere good. It was a journey through a viscous psychotic episode, a nursing home, and back again.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Some things start with the most innocuous events. And that is precisely what happened in my life, where my dogs potty pad sent me down a new path, I would never otherwise have gone. There's the well known "butterfly effect" but I have now discovered the similar "potty pad effect." www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface --- Support this podcast: https:/…

I wanted to give a full episode, as a sort of tribute, to my best friend. While only 20 lbs, and covered in fur, my best friend (prior and current) gives me tremendous support throughout all the years. He has been and continues to be essential help throughout my disease.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfacefac…

Last week I was caught in a rather depressive and exhausted state. When seeing a different counselor today, I had an epiphany that I used to slowly overcome much of this angst.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

This podcast essentially is an unscripted explanation of the weeks of sadness I've had, and it has oozed to the top, putting me in a rather despondent state. I try to talk through it, and surprisingly, find some comfort within myself.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

While not true in a literal sense, I am in the morally sense. What that means and how you will be on the cover too.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Grown utterly sick of the standard medical advice, I provide a proper solution for CHF sufferers. No, I have no medical degree.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've been levied more miserable symptoms lately. Among the worst is frequent collapsing and injuring myself even more. In this episode I describe the symptoms and their consequences. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #syncope #fainting--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface…

Major shifts in my battle against CHF have turned me down a dark road. I don't know when it will heh even worse still, but I'm afraid to ask.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I wish to define a "full life" San demonstrate it is not merely a "good" life. Mistakes and calamity are central to living well. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #foregiveness--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've been in a depressed dog lately, but someone close to me showed me another angle of this displeasure. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #depression--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Telling those you love your feelings for them is no small task, but the rewards are vast and mitigate regret. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #honesty #love #affection--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've fallen victim to terrible psychological disposition that can strike at any time, and can cause more damage than just that to your intelligence, but to your sense of self. It's real. Is here. And I'm it's latest victim.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

A brief and honest discussion of one of the most difficult topics there is: suicide. Listener discretion is advised. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #suicide #hospice #surviving #CHF--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I this podcast I intend to giver a more detailed description of what I'm facing health wise, as well as the terrible psychological effects it has on my person. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #mental health #psychosis--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

Ugh, I have not been doing well. I hope it's not a "new normal" for me. This is a brief health update for those who are interested. A thousands pardons for it being so brief, I hope to make a more complete podcast when I get my voice back (no more punk rock mosh pits and hockey games for me 😞)--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com…

In this episode I bring forward an all too taboo topic to maintain good company: money. More specifically, how it shamelessly emboldens itself even in the face of a fatal disease. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #money #social security--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfacefa…

As I manage my grim disability budget, I chased down some research relating to how power companies can very well kill their customers.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Many people have said to me they haven't can't live a "full life." Here I try to challenge that, and address how one can simply begin a full life, despite their circumstances. Also, I discover Seneca and Mr T have so much in common. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #happiness--- Support this podcast: https://podc…

A loyal listener, my father, asked me to make a record of my health history, since the unique nature of it my help others solve similar issues in the future. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #genetic #deficiency #death #dying #experience #hospice #pain #CHF--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…