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How do I overcome the FEAR that it’s too late to chase a dream? How do I get out of being STUCK in perfectionism, worrying that people will judge me, and being caught up in comparison and self doubt? How do I stay motivated and stop procrastinating out of fear of failure, always feeling unprepared and unqualified before I even begin? How do I prioritize and start making consistent progress on my goals and dreams with highly successful habits, discipline, and focus? And the biggest question o ...
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Up Until Now is hosted by Kristen Hallinan, speaker and author of Legacy Changer: Heal The Hurt, Redeem Your Story, Create Hope for Your Family. Join us each week as Kristen interviews expert guests, focusing on topics that invite healing, help us understand healthy relationships, and equip us with the tools needed to build healthy families—all through the lens of the Bible.
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Do you feel caught between where you want to be and where you “should” be in life? Join Mary and Stephanie May Wilson, author, podcaster, and speaker, as they dive into the importance of conscious decision-making, the value of assembling a trusted board of advisors, and the impact of societal expectations on our life choices. Tune in to hear, How t…
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You see someone else that’s crushing it in parenting, marriage, their career, etc.—and suddenly you doubt your own worthiness. We’ve all been there. In this episode of Up Until Now, Kristen is talking with her friend Jenn Schultz, author of She’s Not Your Enemy. Together, they unpack what it means to find our identity in God (rather than other peop…
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You know when everything feels a little out of control—your schedule, your reactions, your mind?!? Yeah, us too. This week on Up Until Now, my friend Rachel D. Baker—host of the podcast, ‘How’s All That Working For Ya?—is on the show and we’re talking about creating a little breathing room in our lives, for the sake of our health, our relationships…
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Are you overwhelmed by all the unfinished projects around your home? Do you feel stuck in analysis paralysis when it comes to making design decisions? Join Mary and Myquillyn Smith, author, speaker, and designer, as they delve deep into the wisdom of imperfection, the power of limitations, and embracing the journey of creating a home that's true to…
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If you’ve caught yourself yearning for a different life—or wondering why God would allow this pain—you aren’t alone. In this episode of Up Until Now, Kristen talks with Alexandra Kuykendall, host of Our Time to Rise, Co-Founder of The Open Door Sisterhood, and author of many books, including Loving My Actual Life. In this thoughtful, wisdom-packed …
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Do you ever wish you could skip to the “good part” of your life? Join Mary and Ruth Chou Simons, author, artist, and founder of GraceLaced.com, as they discuss the fear of missing out on our life, why we numb out and avoid our disappointment, and the art assignment that changed Ruth’s life. Tune in to hear, The one question you need to ask yourself…
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Can you relate to the feeling of floundering—like you want to do great things for the Kingdom of God, but you just aren’t sure what you are called to do? This week on Up Until Now, Kristen is sitting down with Rebecca George, host of the popular podcast Radical Radiance and author of Do The Thing, to discuss finding and pursuing your calling. Toget…
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Have you ever felt like you have heard clearly from the Lord about a decision or direction, and yet there still seems to be resistance? Like no matter how hard you try, you just can’t get beyond what is standing in your way? Join Mary and Nick Connolly, author, speaker, and pastor, as they dive into the myths that lead us to burnout, simple strateg…
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In this episode of UP UNTIL NOW, Kristen is thrilled to welcome guest Karrie Garcia—trauma-trained story coach, pastor, founder of The Freedom Academy, and author of Free & Fully Alive—to discuss the importance of living free and fully alive by confronting and healing from trauma. Dive into this rich episode to hear: · What trauma truly means—and w…
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Are you tired of being tired? We tell ourselves it will get better after the next deadline or rest will come once we cross the finish line of this season, yet, it never comes. Day in and day out we remain stuck in the loop of repeating the same mantras while still longing deeply for rest that will satisfy. Join Mary and Jess Connolly, friend author…
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In this episode, Kristen sits down with Rachael Gilbert, Counselor, Podcast Host of Real Talk with Rachael, and Author of Image Restored, and discusses the truth on image and identity. This episode is packed with practical tips and wisdom on: How family of origin plays a significant role in shaping our identity. Why restoring image requires an insi…
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Toxins. Crunchy. Natural. Healthy. All buzzwords to lead a ‘better’ life. But really - who has the time to implement these things?! And even if we did, what do we do with the contradicting data and the judgey sentiment that comes with it? If you can relate, this humorous, approachable, and informed conversation will be music to your ears. And de-hu…
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In this episode of UP UNTIL NOW, Kristen Hallinan has the honor of talking with guest Mariela Rosario, Founder of She Speaks Fire Co. and author of the newly released book, She Speaks Fire. Getting real about their own struggles with shame, Kristen and Mariela are exposing where shame comes from and what we can do to start recovering from shame tod…
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Do you feel like you are at rock bottom? Are you exhausted from trying to pick up the pieces of your life and searching for hope? Join Mary and Molly Stillman, writer, speaker, and podcaster, as they discuss the unforgettable twists and turns of Molly’s life and how she found faith, joy, and hope in the middle of it all. Tune in to hear, Why life a…
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In this episode, Kristen Hallinan has the pleasure of talking with Rachel Adams, author of 'A Little Goes a Long Way' and host of 'The Love Offering' podcast. In the midst of disappointment, moving forward looks like dreaming can feel impossible, but—as Rachael encourages us—with God, all things work for the good of those who love him. Do we have f…
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'Is it time for me to stay or should I consider walking away?' Join Mary and Emily P. Freeman, author, spiritual director, and podcaster, as they discuss the how, when, and what now of walking out of rooms and into new ones with peace, confidence, and a whole heart. Tune in to hear, How to discern the difference between true peace and discomfort av…
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Do you feel isolated by the complexities of an evolving faith? Are you struggling to know how to hold the uncertainty you feel in this season? For so many of us, faith has subconsciously become synonymous with certainty. But what do we do when the answers seem to fall short of our experience and our faith feels more like wilderness than the trusted…
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Are you exhausted from the state of the world? Do you feel overwhelmed by the darkness that seems to be all around us, but desire so much to find the light again? Join Mary and Allyson Golden, pediatric nurse, author, and creator of Words Are Golden, as they unpack the significant relationship between darkness and light, the impact of our thought l…
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If you've ever wanted more for your family—more redemption, more hope, more freedom—you've landed in the right place. In the debut episode of UP UNTIL NOW, host Kristen Hallinan sits down with Podcaster, Speaker, and Author of Slow Growth Equals Strong Roots, Mary Marantz, to dive deep into changing our legacies and finding freedom. As Mary shares …
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Are you struggling to know your place in the world? Longing to find some sense of belonging in your location, your community, or within yourself? Join Mary and Joy Clarkson, author and podcaster, as they dive into the necessity of being rooted: emotionally, spiritually, and physically, and the wisdom we can find hidden in the natural world around u…
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Do you ever find yourself wishing you had a different story? Are you afraid the legacy passed down to you will continue to repeat itself? Join Mary and Kristen Hallinan, writer, speaker and advocate, as they discuss the importance of shedding light on the wounds of our past, the science behind stored trauma, and the worthy work of healing. Tune in …
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Have you ever found yourself stretched thin, juggling responsibilities, and feeling judgment for not having it all together? Between a packed schedule, the responsibilities of everyday life, our expectations of ourselves, and the obligations we sense from others, it’s no wonder we are overwhelmed! Join Mary and Jamie Ivey, author, creator, and podc…
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Have you ever felt like your ‘mundane 9-5’ isn’t making a Kingdom impact? This thought can certainly leave you feeling disconnected from your spiritual purpose - even though you know God works all things for His Good. Join Mary and Jordan Raynor, author, speaker, and podcaster, as they break down the origins of the paradigm of sacred and secular wo…
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Have you ever felt like you’re losing your own VOICE? Not the Laryngitis kind of losing your voice of course, but the kind where you stop sounding like…YOU. If the connection to your authentic self feels like it's slipping through your fingers, Mary is here today with an anthem and a reminder that your skilled expertise and lived experience are you…
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Have you ever found yourself stuck in the comparison trap, feeling you're not enough or falling behind based on the lives of others? Join Mary and Jenn Schultz, author, blogger, and podcaster as they discuss our innate search for belonging and the real reason behind our isolation and comparison. Tune in to hear, Why we can’t neglect the small thing…
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Do you desire both more closeness AND more boundaries with your family? The complexities of family dynamics is one we all know all too well. Join Mary and Courtney Burg, writer, speaker and teacher, as they peel back the layers of complex family dynamics, overcoming dysfunction, and setting new patterns for a healthier life. Tune in to hear, How ge…
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Have you ever felt like your emotions are your enemy? That instead of helping you be able to achieve your goals and guide you toward the life you long for, they are a point of weakness standing in your way? Join Mary and Dr. Anita Phillips, notable trauma therapist, life coach, and minister as they explore our divine design, the essential role of e…
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Have you ever found yourself caught in the whirlwind of holiday chaos, desperately searching for a way to maintain your sanity? Join Mary and Heather Brown, business owner, wife, mama, wellness and fitness enthusiast, and creator, as they delve into the art of prioritization, the value of self-care, and practical tips to strengthen your mental, spi…
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Does your worry feel like a record player on repeat in your head? Are you tired of how much time and energy these negative emotions take up? Join Mary and Keri Eichberger, author, blogger, and podcaster, as they explore the journey of learning how to engage with worry and fear in our daily lives. As someone who has always had a predisposition towar…
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Do you doubt yourself and cycle in your thoughts when making decisions? Or defer the dream in your heart by saying ‘I’ll start tomorrow?’ In today’s episode, Mary welcomes special guest, Elizabeth Evans, her powerhouse podcast producer and owner and founder of Elizabeth Evans Media. Together, they explore the importance of self-trust, the consequen…
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How well do you truly connect with the parts of your story that involve suffering? Join Mary and Dr. Curt Thompson, renowned psychiatrist, speaker, and author, as they discuss: The role of recognizing our unresolved wounds, The significance of co-regulating emotional distress, and The four attachment styles that drive our relationships. Discover pr…
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Are you weighed down by the labels you received in your childhood? Do you feel defined by the hardest parts of your past? Join Mary and Suzie Eller, author, Bible teacher, and speaker, as they delve into the: Effects of generational trauma, Necessity of holding space for a different perspective in your story, and True definition of joy. Today’s epi…
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Have you ever woken up and felt like your life is not where you want it to be? You look around and seem to see others living their dream or hitting the goals you had hoped to achieve- all the while feeling stuck in a season you never envisioned. Join Mary and Jason VanRuler, a licensed therapist and expert in personal development, as they explore t…
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Do you ever feel like you missed your shot? Like somewhere along the way you took the wrong turn or missed an opportunity that couldn’t be corrected? In many ways, Willie and Korie Robertson’s story should have been finished before it even started. Willie’s father, Phil, was in the throes of mental health struggles and addiction, with a wife and gr…
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How did I get here? Why does this keep happening to me? For Anh Lin, broken relationships and deferred dreams had become expected. It was easier to anticipate the loss than to give herself to the possibility that she might experience the peace and stability she longed for. With a limited budget and unlimited creativity, she was determined to change…
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Are you worn down from carrying the wounds of your past? Do you feel like part of your story disqualifies you from the life and wholeness you long for? I know I am loved by God, but…. What about my past? What about my mistakes? What about my brokenness? Sound familiar? Growing up in generational trauma, Cassandra Speer, of Her True Worth, learned q…
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Are you preoccupied with the pursuit of your next goal? Do you feel a sense of urgency to be further along in your journey than you are? With an art degree in hand, today’s guest had dreams she longed to see come true. But as life often does, her course changed and she resolved that it’s fullest form would be realized only in the quiet, hidden part…
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Are you weighed down, exhausted, and overwhelmed by your daily life? Do you feel disconnected from yourself and God? During a season of loss, Hosanna Wong felt stuck. The things that she had built her life on that she believed would last suddenly were crumbling down. Deep within herself, she knew there was more to her life but it seemed impossible …
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Do you feel stuck and isolated in the season you are in? Are you tired of trying to make things happen in your own strength or figuring out what God is up to? Married with a new baby, today’s guest felt like she was living a completely different life from the one where she KNEW who she was. Where was the girl she once knew? As the image she created…
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Do you ever feel…lonely? “What happens in loneliness is you become fractured inside, your soul is not right and you are not well because you were made for people. There is a wholeness, integrity and non-fractured nature to our life when we live it amongst friends.” For today’s guest, an act of vulnerability laid the groundwork for a life changing p…
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When did you first become aware of how others perceived you? Out of a dream she had for herself and her community, Natalie Franke found herself leading a rapidly expanding community of independent business owners. But as her impact grew, so did the weight of others' perceptions - ultimately clouding her own sense of direction. If the thoughts and w…
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Just as Brittany Bruce and her family started their summer vacation at their new condo, the call came in that their business had just hit seven figures. But rather than experiencing a feeling of ‘I’ve made it’ - she was left with a feeling of ‘now what?’ And what she heard next from God was not what she was expecting. This led her on a journey of l…
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Do you find yourself not getting much joy from the things that used to light you up? Do you feel stuck in the breakneck pace of proving and projecting a perfect life? Out of our own perception of the voices around us, social media, our culture, and even our own expectations, we create and chase our definition of ‘perfect’ So what would happen if we…
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Chelsey and Stephen Diaz had accomplished every entrepreneur's dream of a successful business, yet the pressure and weight of it all began bearing down on them. What Chelsey and Stephen would experience next, was a string of events that would work to dismantle the limiting beliefs in their lives and open them to the limitless economy of the Kingdom…
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Never would Mattie Jackson have imagined that at the age of twenty-eight, she would be suddenly widowed just 3 weeks shy of her first wedding anniversary. Did God cause this to happen? Or, did He just allow it? Amidst the tension of the God she knew and the reality she was living, the only way she believed she could make sense of the pain was by wr…
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Jillian Benfield’s life changed in the matter of a 20-second phone call. At the point of absolute destruction, there are more questions than answers, but if you too find yourself surrounded by rubble and ash, Jillian’s healing story is precisely what you need to hear. Jillian and Mary discuss the possibility at the other end of your pain and the fo…
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What does it take for you to start creating? Do you need a specific rhythm or routine to help you settle into the process? Or, uninterrupted time in your favorite spot at home or out in nature? Creativity is messy, vulnerable, time-consuming, and hard work. It takes effort and courage to open ourselves to an imperfect process, let alone have the pa…
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What is the one part of your life that is not quite right? When asked that, I bet a specific area comes to mind right away. You just…know. Often, it isn’t until the point of collapse (a marriage, friendship, job loss) that we realize we failed to pay attention to the signs that the foundation beneath us wasn’t as solid as we thought. Join Alli and …
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Have you ever felt like you lost yourself? That who you were and who are now just aren’t quite syncing up? The loves and losses of the last decades had created a life full of joy for Dawn but through it all, she began to slowly shift to the sidelines of her own life. After decades full of morphing and giving to those around her, when she faced the …
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Do you ever feel like building and scaling a business is easier for everyone else? For Liz and Jessica, courage cornered them early. After experiencing the impacts of the exploitation of work in communities they loved and the confines of global poverty particularly on women and girls, there was no other decision to make but to take action. And now,…
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