Best Hayley Rawle Podcasts (2024)

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Almost ex-communicated with Josie Van Dyke 1:27:41

14h ago1:27:41

1:27:41

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal ideation & attempt Yes, you read that right! At just 16, today's guest, Josie Van Dyke, faced the threat of a Mormon disciplinary council. We dive into what led to that moment and the journey that followed, all the way to Josie's decision to leave Mormonism. Since Josie hosts a podcast where she speaks with people across t…

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Feuding with Dr. Phil 1:04:00

7d ago1:04:00

1:04:00

I went on the Dr. Phil show to talk about being ex-religious, and I’ve got THOUGHTS! After a quick rundown of my experience (plus responding to all the drama from those who are upset I even went on), we dive into this month’s campfire chat. We’re tackling tough questions like, 'What should I do if I realize I’m in a toxic marriage?' and 'How do I h…

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The Final Nail in the Coffin 54:52

15d ago54:52

54:52

Today I'm telling your Mormon funeral stories as we talk through all things grief, death and funerals in the Mormon context. While I attempt to maintain some light-heartedness about this often somber topic, I do end up bawling my eyes out toward the end. You've been warned! TRIGGER WARNING: child & infant loss For more Girlscamp content follow alon…

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MORMONISM 101: What do Mormons REALLY believe? 1:32:08

23d ago1:32:08

1:32:08

In response to the big Mormon pop culture moment that is The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, I’m putting my missionary hat back on to break down the fundamentals of Mormon doctrine! Because before really diving into soaking, ketamine treatments, soda shops, garments, and patriarchal marriages, you've got to understand the basics. My husband Bentley j…

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The Secret Life of an (Ex) Mormon Wife with Jessi Ngatikaura 1:20:34

1M ago1:20:34

1:20:34

That’s right! We got Jessi Ngatikaura from the current number one show on Hulu “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives.” Jessi shares about her Mormon upbringing, what led her out of the church and what it was like being the only ex-Mormon cast member on the show. We get into all the Mormon moments including the infamous flask in the hot tub, the baby sh…

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Jesus Christ & toxic masculinity 1:06:20

1M ago1:06:20

1:06:20

🔥 It's campfire chat time! 🔥 Today's lineup: a story of an Elder’s Quorum president fiercely defending toxic masculinity, my rant on whether Mormons are really Christians, a quick rundown on why I think LDS doctrine is total BS, and some thoughts on letting go of finding myself. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTu…

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What's in a (temple) name? 1:35:33

1M ago1:35:33

1:35:33

If you don’t know Emily yet, you’re welcome for the intro! She’s an expert in all things names and where they overlap with Utah/Mormon influencer culture. Today we’re chatting about the Utah name stereotypes (think McKinzleigh), the wild world of Book of Mormon names and what’s going on with the secret temple names. You’re going to love it. She als…

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Family reunion gone... Mormon 1:01:16

2M ago1:01:16

1:01:16

There’s nothing more Mormon than a big old family reunion! Unless it’s a big old family reunion hosted at a polygamy compound! Or one that has some temple-style role-play in the woods. Or… well, you’ll just have to listen to this episode and find out. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please …

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Style over (modesty) standards with Victoria Miner 1:08:32

2M ago1:08:32

1:08:32

It’s no easy feat to rediscover your style after ditching strict modesty standards. Fashion influencer Victoria Miner comes to Girlscamp to share all her practical tips and tricks on finding your personal style. We talk about modesty as control in Mormonism, the power of self-expression via fashion and the “fugliness” of garments. For more Girlscam…

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Ex-Mormon musings on Ballerina Farm 52:58

2M ago52:58

52:58

Ballerina Farm, Hulu’s newly announced show “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives,” and my personal wrestle before God around womanhood are the interwoven intro topics for this week’s campfire chat. After connecting these dots, we dive into your submissions, discussing whether I've ever questioned my sexuality, a wild story about a Mormon funeral, and …

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Down the K-hole! 1:03:58

3M ago1:03:58

1:03:58

I’m doing ketamine treatment! And I’ve got a lot to say about it! Today I’m recapping the how, what and why of my own ketamine therapy, including what led me to it. I share my takeaways, which include thoughts on Mormon faith deconstruction, motherhood, friendship breakups, self-compassion and ~the meaning of life~. I also talk about my recent trip…

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Transracial adoption into a Mormon family 1:32:46

3M ago1:32:46

1:32:46

Tara Herbert opens up about how her identity was repeatedly erased: as a transracial adoptee in a white Mormon family, as a Black woman misled about the church’s problematic past, and as a mother excluded by men from spiritual rituals. She also shares her journey of rediscovering her identity and worth outside the confines of the Mormon church. For…

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STALKED on a Mormon mission 1:11:45

3M ago1:11:45

1:11:45

We’re telling more mission tales, focusing on the lack of safety many missionaries experienced. From stalkers and hostile governments to dangerous companions and hurricanes, there's no shortage of ways to feel unsafe on a Mormon mission. The common thread? Those in charge doing the absolute least to ensure our safety. Trigger Warning: This episode …

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Experiencing domestic violence in an LDS marriage 1:23:30

3M ago1:23:30

1:23:30

Only three days into her honeymoon, Gabby's husband began abusing her. She believed he was a good Mormon boy because he’d always played the part. The violence continued, sometimes even triggered by church rules, until she found the strength to leave. Soon after, she discovered she was pregnant. Gabby shares how the church made her more vulnerable t…

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Girl(scamp), so confusing 1:01:55

3M ago1:01:55

1:01:55

As Charli XCX knows, being a girl can be so confusing—especially for a post-Mormon! Around the campfire today, we're chatting about grieving identity after a faith transition, a stake president who needs to grow up and learn some social skills, and why I haven't officially removed my records from the church yet. I also respond to submissions about:…

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Conversion therapy to drag diva 1:08:11

4M ago1:08:11

1:08:11

Meredith Peterson shares the journey that led to her coming out as a transgender woman. She tried to live the model Mormon life, including going on a mission and graduating from Brigham Young University. She even had to endure horrible conversion therapy sessions in a family friend’s basement. After coming out as gay, she discovered the art of drag…

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r/ExMormon 1:06:45

4M ago1:06:45

1:06:45

Buckle up for the best (and craziest) posts from the exmormon subreddit. I’ve curated wild stories, thought-provoking questions, and hilarious comments from my favorite Reddit page to scroll through late at night. We’re talking about murderous moms (yes, you read that right), a Sunday school lesson about Taylor Swift, and a return missionary gettin…

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Meeting myself after Mormonism with Kelsey Wells 1:19:08

4M ago1:19:08

1:19:08

After 10 years, Kelsey Wells is finally ready to share her whole story about leaving Mormonism. We dive into her devout Mormon upbringing, her husband leaving the church before her, and the intense social and emotional fallout she faced after discovering the church wasn’t true. Then we chat about how she's rebuilt her sense of self and spirituality…

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Don't be mean to missionaries! 1:01:40

4M ago1:01:40

1:01:40

First Wednesday of the month means it’s time for a campfire chat! I’m reading and responding to your thoughts, questions and advice inquiries. Some things we’re chatting about: How I’m REALLY doing since my dad’s death The way you should treat the Mormon missionaries If ex-religious people are more educated and enlightened than religious ones Why i…

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SHELF-BREAKER(S) with Zelph on the Shelf 1:13:56

5M ago1:13:56

1:13:56

Many of us who are ex-religious can pinpoint a moment when everything came crashing down. Today, we are talking through those moments. They run the gamut—from reading multiple accounts of Joseph Smith’s First Vision and hearing Jeffrey R. Holland’s “musket fire” talk to having a friend come out as gay and watching a Scientology documentary that fel…

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Ex-Mormon Mean Girl 1:04:30

5M ago1:04:30

1:04:30

Today, I unpack the Mormon-run "Ward Radio" hate episode about little old me! I discuss my reservations about snark content and then proceed to dive into a snarky episode of my own. But hey, I do it much better than they do. And I guess I've got to live up to my new "mean girl" title somehow. Cultural Hall recap of Ward Radio video: https://www.you…

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BRIEF DEATH EXPERIENCE 1:13:51

5M ago1:13:51

1:13:51

Andrew flatlined and had an afterlife experience that really shook up his Mormon worldview when he was brought back to life. This kicked off an unraveling of faith in his 40s that ultimately led to leaving the Mormon church. We talk about his leaving and reconstructing, as well as connect over losing close family members, swap mission stories and a…

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I had a COW at EFY 48:27

5M ago48:27

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EFY aka Especially for Youth aka Mormon youth summer camp- let's get into it. From COWs (crushes of the week) to creepy counselors to Christian worship knock-off music being sung in unison, there's a lot to talk about. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may ha…

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Married people have crushes too?! 53:32

6M ago53:32

53:32

My partner Bentley joins to kick-off our new once-a-month campfire chat tradition. We answers all your burning questions (how to start swearing, what not to bring up around Mormon family members, how I feel about the criticism for wearing a tank top dress to a temple wedding). Then things get a little juicier as we open up about how we navigate por…

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FOUND JESUS, LEFT MORMONISM with Nicole Mitchell 1:18:45

6M ago1:18:45

1:18:45

Connecting with Jesus was the catalyst for Nicole leaving the LDS church. After telling her Mormon story (which includes addiction, foster care & a temple marriage at 18), we dig into her love of Jesus now as a post-Mormon. I admit my own Christianity hangups and we get into all the tricky dynamics between people of Christian faith and those who ha…

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PATRIARCHAL CURSINGS 58:56

6M ago58:56

58:56

We’re talking Mormon fortune-telling aka patriarchal blessings. And how, for many ex-Mormons, they were less of a blessing and more of a curse. I give a little patriarchal blessing 101, share about the significant way my blessing changed my life and then read and unpack listener submissions about the crazy things their blessings said. Please note t…

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Let's talk about (ex-religious) sex! 1:18:45

6M ago1:18:45

1:18:45

Sex therapist and self-proclaimed sex witch Aimee Heffernan talks us through all things sexual health. She answers questions about pornography, masturbation and non-monogamy from a post-religious perspective. Her openness and enthusiasm about sex is inspiring, especially for those of us with a lot of baggage (ahem, purity culture) around our own se…

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Ruby Franke & the Mormonism of it all 1:05:51

6M ago1:05:51

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When it comes to the Ruby Franke case, many of us are wondering- how Mormon is all of this? Samantha Shelley and I answer that question today from our ex-Mormon perspective. We discuss purity culture, the character of Mormon God, when "honor thy father and mother" goes too far and how we feel about Ruby and Jodi's recent statements in court. Please…

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CATHOLIC SCHOOL DROPOUT 1:16:37

7M ago1:16:37

1:16:37

Evelyn fell DEEP into fundamental Catholicism as a struggling teen, to the point of only wearing skirts (even to go swimming). But once she started at Franciscan University, the fundamentalism became too much. Her journey includes discovering her sexuality, being told her panic attacks might be demonic and ultimately being intimidated into withdraw…

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I KISSED A GIRL AT GIRLS CAMP 54:14

7M ago54:14

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Gather 'round the fire for some wild stories from Mormon girl's camp. These tales include traumatizing object lessons, "snipe hunting" and getting secretly stoned under the stars. And I even sing my favorite girl's camp song! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain …

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THE CHURCH BROKE OUR FRIENDSHIP 1:24:32

7M ago1:24:32

1:24:32

BFFs since third grade, Tanner and I experienced most of our faith journeys together. When Tanner came out as gay and then left the Mormon church, I was still hanging on to my progressive Mormon ways. Because of these differences, we broke up. Now that we’ve reconciled, we have lots to say about how the church can come in between people. Thank God …

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OVERSHARING IS CARING 1:06:23

7M ago1:06:23

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TMI? Never! This episode I answer all your juicy questions and make a few confessions along the way. We’re chatting about wandering thoughts while married, my beef with progressive Mormons, making sense of past spiritual experiences and what I think about “homewreckers.” Thanks for letting me (over) share. --- Support this podcast: https://podcaste…

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INFERTILITY & FAITH w/Jaci Marie Smith 1:26:31

8M ago1:26:31

1:26:31

Jaci tells the whole story of her infertility journey, focusing on the faith aspect of things. We discuss how we feel about “God’s timing”, how Jaci hopes to parent outside of the strict rules of Mormonism and what it's like to be a couple of gals who sometimes need to be "humbled" by whatever higher power might be out there. --- Support this podca…

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FORGIVE US FOR WE HAVE SINNED 1:02:22

8M ago1:02:22

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Today Ty French and I get to play Mormon bishop and, spoiler alert, we’re sending some of you straight to jail (forget the sacrament)! We read your confessions which include a steamy encounter with a cousin, a “teensy affair” with a BYU professor and sexting with the Elders. I don’t know if I’ll ever see Mormons the same way again. --- Support this…

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EXMO MOM TELLS ALL 1:01:26

8M ago1:01:26

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Today I'm getting really real about the realities of motherhood, especially as a recovering Mormon. I talk about feeling like a failure to be properly "maternal", the strain parenting has been on my marriage and if I think I would have had kids in another life as a never-Mormon. Let's just say, I'll be having a vulnerability hangover after this one…

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SUBSCRIBE TO SELF WORTH w/Jenna Rammell 1:32:12

8M ago1:32:12

1:32:12

Jenna Rammell, founder & CEO, opens up about stepping away from Mormonism after years of "unsubscribing" from the many facets of it that felt uncomfortable her whole life. As a mother of four, she and her husband have found new ways of establishing spiritual rituals and meaning as a family. And, most importantly, she's living for herself for the fi…

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What the eff is Kolob?! 56:21

9M ago56:21

56:21

Welcome to the weird world of Mormon deep doctrine! We’ll be answering the titular question as well as: does Satan control the waters? Is Bigfoot actually Cain? Do all Mormons need to move to Missouri ASAP? Oh and I discover what a T.K. Smoothie is and… it’s not the newest Jamba Juice menu offering. I did a lot of my fact-checking for this episode …

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Psychedelics & Spirituality w/Christian Snuffer 1:20:56

9M ago1:20:56

1:20:56

If there's one thing post-Mormons tend to be interested in, it's magic mushrooms. Christian talks in depth about psychedelics as medicine and how they can be also be used to help re-establish a spiritual center after deconstructing religion. And, obviously, I manage to get some free therapy along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcaster…

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MORMON DATING GONE WRONG 1:08:03

9M ago1:08:03

1:08:03

Welcome to the weird world of Mormon dating. Bentley joins me for moral support this week because these stories are particularly wild ones! There are scripture study dates, rampant misogynistic remarks and crocs with no socks (you'll see). --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episod…

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From religious OCD to self love 1:16:37

9M ago1:16:37

1:16:37

The Mormon church was EVERYTHING to today's guest Jenna Jarvis- so much so that she was diagnosed with religious OCD. She shares about what it was like to find wholeness away from Mormonism. Her story includes love songs to herself, a romcom worthy European summer and so much more! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/h…

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ONE YEAR of Girlscamp! 54:56

10M ago54:56

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Happy Girlscamp-iversary! We're celebrating one year together (albeit a tad early) by talking about the lessons I learned in 2023. These range from how I've been taking care of my physical/mental health to why I think smut is necessary for post-Mormon girlies to how to grow as a content creator. I can't wait for all we have in store for 2024. --- S…

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Pulp(it) Fiction 51:18

10M ago51:18

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Except for it's non-fiction! These stories of wild things said from a Mormon church pulpit prove that truth is indeed stranger than fiction. The tales include a public admission of an affair, a self-proclaimed Messiah and a conspiracy theory against the Mormon prophet. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/s…

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Existential crisis alert 1:06:13

10M ago1:06:13

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There’s nothing like working through the “Questions of the Soul” (a la Preach my Gospel) to get one pondering the meaning of existence. This week I compare and contrast my post-Mormon thoughts vs. Mormonism’s answers on God, life’s purpose and how to find happiness. It's a fun one! References: Brittany Hartley @nononsensespirituality Kurt Vonnegut …

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In memoriam of my dad 56:32

10M ago56:32

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My dad died unexpectedly at age 54. Today I talk about what it's been like to process his death, especially the spiritual side of it all. I also read the words I spoke at his funeral. Mostly, I share what his life and love meant to me. And what they mean to me now. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/suppo…

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How do I make friends! w/Lucy Hutchins 1:29:11

10M ago1:29:11

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Finally! We’re talking ALL things female friendship, especially when it comes to mixed-faith ones. But first, Lucy shares her own faith journey and what she learned along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for produ…

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Merry X(Mormon)-Mas 1:01:37

11M ago1:01:37

1:01:37

It's Christmastime! For those who celebrate. And for those who celebrate but it's a little ~complicated.~ On top of telling crazy Mormon Christmas stories, I talk about thoughts and ideas for doing Christmas after your faith has changed, how I feel about Christ generally and I give a couple big life updates too. --- Support this podcast: https://po…

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Sister missionaries turned lovers 1:45:44

11M ago1:45:44

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You heard that right! Lola and Jayden were sister missionaries serving in the same area when they struck up a friendship that turned into a romance. After a kiss that changed everything, they've had to navigate coming out, leaving the church and being ostracized by family members. It's been difficult, but they've been able to do it together. TW: Su…

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Your bishop said WHAT? 50:53

11M ago50:53

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We’re back to round out the crazy bishop conversation (for now). Bentley joins to help breakdown more stories about bishops which include odd and unsound advice, confessions at the pulpit and, of course, a fair amount of sexism. I guess it wouldn’t be a Girlscamp episode without at least a little feminine (+Bentley) rage. --- Support this podcast: …

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BIG, BAD MORMON BISHOP 58:20

11M ago58:20

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Fair warning, this episode is full of feminine rage. Because if anything warrants ranting and raging, it’s Mormon bishop stories. We focus today on the sex-related stuff- inappropriate worthiness interviews, creepy modesty callouts and a whole lot of sex-shaming. Because if Mormon bishops have one thing, it's the audacity. --- Support this podcast:…

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MORMON MOM, EX-MORMON DAUGHTER 1:18:47

12M ago1:18:47

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What do you get when a Relief Society president, stake Young Women's counselor and exmormon record a podcast episode? You'll have to listen and find out! My mom and sisters (active LDS) join Girlscamp today and we talk about all the ways we navigate our mixed-faith family dynamic. We discuss doctrinal beliefs around degrees of heaven, how they felt…

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