7 Years out of 8. This is the story of my life as I live it. Week by week, state by state, you'll see me at my best and worst. I listen to these later, and I reflect on my own experiences and my own thoughts. It's an interesting thing to do, and you're welcome to partake. The world is playing a beautiful melody we're not listening to, and I'm trying my best to listen. When everything is silent, we find the peace to listen. Welcome to the clarity of the night. Welcome to the story of my life.
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09.08.2024 16:32 sitting in a park working through a lot of things in my head. Grateful for it.
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16:12 04.08.2024 It feels right to end this podcast. I’ve gotten what I need out of it in this format, and now I’m changing the format so it serves me myself. Thank you for being here. Goodbye.
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23:26 28.07.2024 Im at Lilly’s. It’s almost midnight. I recorded short audios throughout the week. I ordered an M1 macboon pro that was too bruised and had a bad battery. Ordered an m3 15 inch Polarstar after I got my salary. Sent out payments today. Got my tax money and sent most of it to my mom with donations on top. Sometimes I record what I wan…
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Upload 23:22 21.07.2024 I recorded this on the way home on Friday the 19th. Stayed in the office and watched political youtube videos. Walked for an hour. Relieved my mind. Otherwise, I talked to Lilly a lot this week. I watched a Japanese animated movie about a singer who turns into an actress and loses her mind as she gets stalked, great movie)…
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14.07.2024 23:40 recorded before sleeping. A night or two ago. Talking to Lily right now. She’s so cute.
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07.07.2024 23:33 Two recordings: First night in London and Story Dice ant and butterfly love story recording. Arrived Thursday 00:30 am and the story dice thing was on Monday. Watching a youtube video of a time laps of plants growing and its amazing. Ordered a M2 ipad pro 16 gb 1 Tb used in excellent condition for 1200 euro and a macbook air m2 8gb…
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Sven - Skydiving - Therapy - The Amazon Curse
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23:53 23.06.2024 it’s 11 days since my birthday. Damn time moves fast. I recorded myself for an hour for a course and didnt know I was recording in slow motion. I deleted the content this morning. Was funny and no audio was kept just the video. Met a woman who loves dreams, understanding them and writing about them - we discussed a few of my dreams…
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23:23 16.06.2024 Im writing this at the last night of the yoga retreat. After drinking blue lotus flower distilled alcohol and doing a gong shivasana session. A lot of different feelings in general about being here but also happy about the experience and happy about going back. Was able to think about what I’ve been through and going through differ…
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Just realised citizen has the word zen in it but cities have no zen!!! Hahahahhaha 23:30 05.06
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11:35 pm 03.06 8% moon
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11:39 PM 02.06.2024 enjoying Mandela's autobiography. Focusing a lot on different projects. Enjoying massively how I've been thinking and approaching issues and emotions. I am doing well. Even when things don't go perfectly. Slept on two yoga matts the last week besides last night and it felt amazing. Love you Kinans.…
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I got to experience Kali. Should be experiencing her all the time. My feet were touched. And I cried.
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23:03 19.05.2024 about to sleep! Goodnight. Looking forward to tomorrow and the rest of the week.
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Recorded Monday 13.05.2024 in Cagliari in the apartment. I sent Ashraf a long voicenote telling him how I was suffering girl wise in Italy. We got on a phonecall the day after and talked a lot. He was telling me not to keep moving when I went on a walk. He was eating a beautiful dish.
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23:19 12.05.2024 I’m sitting in a yellow chair in Cagliari reading Nelson Mandela’s autobiography. Sat with Philipp for a long time drinking Matte and discussing P and I and matters of life and death. Was a good trip and I’m glad to be back. My mind went through many moments throughout and it concluded at finding peace in the heart of kindness in m…
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23:06 05.05.2024 In Cagliari. Will send mom a voicenote telling her how I am. About to sleep. Work tomrrow from here. Want to work on Sex, Porn and Love addiction book tomorrow. Focus on writing and then merge that into editing. Do your pushups with Stefan and Philipp. Have a late lunch even if it’s difficult. Keep it to salt with water. If you’re …
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2024.04.24 09.25 It was a full moon last night and I decided to record right after finishing Dexter: New Blood. Recorded around 11:20 pm 23.04.2024
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The Sage's Card. The Instrument of Power. The Seeds of Color. Planted.
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21.04.2024 23:00 Sunday. Feeling raw and available. What a wonderful experience. Coming from my heart a lot more. Afraid of not being in connection. Afraid of going back to old patterns. Afraid of losing access to the open doors of a golden place in my heart. And life continues. And that is why many of its moments can be beautiful to begin with.…
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09:29 13.04.2024 Sunday. Took a break from packing my bags to record this. Went to Mahadeens to talk music the other night. Allahu Akbar. Work work work (wc3 peasant sound). New housemates, Chiara leaving. Yo. Bald now.
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15:29 Sunday 07.04.2024 omw to Berghein walking there and going to be there in a few minutes. Sunny lovely weather. New Moon tomorrow.
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Week 285: Voicenotes - Zeit vergeht schnell
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23:39 2024.03.31 ich sitze neben Momo in Iserlohn. Er spielt ShadowFight 2 und die Familie sitzt mit Freunden. Wir hatten vor kurzem unten unter rucken trainiert und Horse-stance für 2 Minuten gemacht. In diesem Folge habe ich drei Voicenotes. Eins an Johannes, eins an Papa und eins an Mousa. Papa war erst, dann direkt Mousa, und Johannes war vor 4…
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23:46 24.03.2024 got a new couch. Overheard some guy talking about content marketing. Dads health is bad again. Finished reading: Green Mile. Write Useful Books. Reading Solo Leveling. Doing 3x duolingo classes a day in Japanese. Figured out my camera settings. My microphone settings. Set my basis in a lot of things. Did I say I got a new couch?…
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23:29 17.03.2024 Watched The Bear season 1 and 2 this week. Last pages of The Green Mile. Finished writing ‘Escape’. Proofed first seven chapters of “The Cure”. Wrote more in other directions. Courses im taking: intro to architecture, intro to political science, ninja writing. Planned different courses, marketing opportunities. Sent an email to Kar…
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23:51 10.03.2024 raised 350 for Gaza and Zaks family.
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Recorded Friday 8-9 pm. I talk about the new shoes I got and how amazing of an experience it is. Also about how things got together for me to run into a lot of people I touched base with in Berlin. The one I didnt mention was Marlena or something like that. Also saw her, she didnt see me in the train. i smiled and continued towards neukölln on Thur…
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Recorded Monday 4th of March 2024. After yoga class. Remembered Tami and Mousa and how I always chase distance. I don’t want to chase distance.
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Week 281: Dune II, Poor things, work tomorrow
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23:02 03.03.2024 Changed my mind about work again. Looking forward to the structure and knowing im doing something that directly pays me. Ill have to see how I manage my energy. Did a breathwork class last evening and the facilitator was in front of me breathing and I couldnt breathe because his breath stank.…
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Week 280: Tools - eating, sleeping, general state
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25.02.2024 09:58 week 280 of doing this feels like there’s something to celebrate about that. Shared generally how my diet and lifestyle are.
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24.02.2024 00:04 ashraf and I had a long conversation. Valentines day tantra event. Riccy and I breaking up. Party coming up in two weeks
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What do you do when you have no energy to upload an episode but promise yourself to?
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10.02.2024 11:30 am Saturday. Got the chance to talk and catch up with my first friend Ramez Azizi. We touched all topics good male friends touch: Career, politics, army, and life goals. And most importantly, waste management in large cities.A little bit of Arabic and English together. Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwdVC9wZIOY&t=2s…
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Filmed for the first time. Youtube Link: Sunday 04.02.2024 1:39 pm. I have a new haircut. Vegan atm. Much more balanced. New room setup. Mic and camera setup. Realised I need to grow on youtube more slowly than go as fast as I keep telling myself. Slow and steady wins the race.I talk about a challenge of beginning meditation. The idea of beauty. Gr…
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20:37 26.01.2024 Went to the gym after work and meditated. Then I felt extremely tired and that I didnt want to work out. I stretched and did good exercises while listening to sub urban, foam rolled, then went home and recorded (after grocery shopping). I reflect on the week.
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00:32 20.01.2024 In bed after eating and brushing my teeth. I love that I feel so safe around my parents. I love that they love me. I love that they know me through and through and still choose to love me this much. It hurts a bit to know I have to go back. But I’m grateful that it worked out so smoothly to come and be here. I remember how smooth i…
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23:30 14.01.2024 mama is sitting in front of me. She told me she cried all day and my coming here didn’t make her feel comfortable. But she loves me. It’s so easy to get into useless circles with people we love or want to love. And my heart closed somehow and I don’t want to force it to open. And I don’t want to keep telling my mother to change.…
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Recorded 11:25 pm before my flight to Amman last night on the 7th of Jan. Arrived at 4 am at 08.01 (Amman time). Unfortunately didn’t have internet for longer than 30 mins at the airport and I forgot to upload. Upload now on 11:13 pm 08.01.2024 (Berlin time). My watch is running on Berlin time while my phone is running on Amman time. Interesting to…
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31.12.2023 writing this on 01.01.2024 19:19 pm. Ashraf and I went to the gym, came back home, made him a hot bath and food and then we played ps4. He was carrying too much and I wasn’t so comfortable. So much for unconditionally loving people. I think she should finish his training and his degree. He asked me some weird things and I found him gener…
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09:36 24.12.2023 Sitting in a new apartment. Recording early in the morning. Should head out to the gym soon. I dislike so much how coffee effects my sleep. I see how much actions hurt people like my mom, people I shouldn’t hurt. And yeah, I’ll hopefully see her well in Amman.
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Week 270: i don’t know what to title this
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19:26 17.12.2023 I think out loud and cook (a few days ago), then reflect without much talking about the day I’ve had. That’s the vibe I’m in.
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12.12.2023 trying to find my wallet to put the credit card
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10.12.2023 23:27 sorry this one’s short
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٠٣.١٢.٢٠٢٣ الاحد I was inspired by Arabic news casters to record my day and thoughts in that style.
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27.11.2023 I want to make you a salad. With spinach, tomatoes… walnuts and a little vinegar. And then I want to hold you.
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23:14 26.11.2023 Sunday Second time I wake up with loss of coordination. Started headspace anxiety meditation again and it’s helped a lot. Spending time with friends is really valuable.
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19.11.2023 23:34 I sent Mousa an 8 and 2 minute voice note. I went dancing twice this week. Love the teachers. Met Felix on Friday and had a good bro down. Went to a demonstration yesterday but it wasn’t for me. I went home and started writing a new book. I was supposed to go training with my new housemate today but woke up with a sore throat. On T…
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22:38 Sunday 12.11.2023
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21:34 Tuesday 07.11.2023 The palestinian flag fell on me at 2:59 in the morning last night. I’ve been standing much taller these days.
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