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Hitting plateaus is a common milestone in business, but there’s a difference between stability and a rut. In the last installment of this season, we’ll dive into the ways small business owners push beyond plateaus and find new ways to achieve revenue growth. Jannese and Austin wrap up their time in Nashville, Tennessee with a wonderful visit to N.B. Goods to speak with owner Camille Alston . Camille details the times where she hit a wall with profits, the strategies she implemented to increase revenue, what worked, what didn’t, and the important lessons she learned in the process. You won’t want to miss this informative final chapter! Learn more about how QuickBooks can help you grow your business: QuickBooks.com See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.…
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This conversation is about Divorce, specifically the first six months. It's about understanding the emotional and physical spaces the guests have gone through. You will listen to and observe what people have experienced and the decisions they made to navigate their divorce. They talk about what happened, what they did, and what they would do differently. The conversation is unique because it provides insights into what happens in divorce within the first six months. Learn what we did, so that you can avoid making the same mistakes.
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This conversation is about Divorce, specifically the first six months. It's about understanding the emotional and physical spaces the guests have gone through. You will listen to and observe what people have experienced and the decisions they made to navigate their divorce. They talk about what happened, what they did, and what they would do differently. The conversation is unique because it provides insights into what happens in divorce within the first six months. Learn what we did, so that you can avoid making the same mistakes.
in this episode, a deep dive into what this means on both sides of the spectrum is shared. Looking into the cost versus the payoff of being a victim or victimizing. Identifying some of the patterns in which it exists and also exploring some of the solutions available to us now. This topic is a very serious one, and many of us who have experienced it or are currently experiencing it does not have the necessary tools readily available sometimes because of whatever limitation we might have. This episode was created for those that are in this situation. I hope that my observation brings you closer to understanding and finding peace.…
In our final episode with Segev, we begin with a mantra he follows. "I am man and I serve love." He shares how this helped him, how it shaped him and how he just more of that now. As we begin to realize that we are completing our conversation, we get a side of Segev that shares insight into what it was like to be divorced with children and how expectations are a building block to what you want to make happen. We hear how a man takes responsibility for the good, the bad, and the ugly. Making a future for himself that allows him to find gold in every opportunity. It has been very refreshing to share all the episodes leading up to this one, as well as, this particular one. As a man, you seldom have the space to really be vulnerable and share weakness as Segev has done in this series. I hope that other men, as well as, women. Have the chance to hear it all and discover for themselves what Segev has shared.…
In this episode, Segev shares how uncomfortable it is to go against the grain, to risk self-expression. How within his life he has maneuvered to gain acceptance and love out of others expectations. He speaks about how much he cried during his first six months and how he grew to love the process.
How to manage fear is not exactly what the title means. I say this because each of us is different and fear is a much larger thing to manage than a 10-minute podcast. But, do not be discouraged, I do offer up some insight into the world and you will have some solutions presented to you. The important thing to know going into this episode is that we are going to look into how managing fear can be managed.…
In this episode, we look at the elements that made his life liveable. How finding himself again began with a choice and how the actions of that choice led him here. We learn the importance of reconnecting with one's self and how Segev discovered that. We also learn the perspective he nurtured to achieve the freedom around remembering who he is and what that looked like for him back when. Segev has done a lot of work on himself to get to where he is today, and most of it began with looking at himself first. He talks about how people choose the kids as the purpose to keep them going and how that didn’t work for him. How he began to see, to remember, or Re-Member as he says who he was and wanted to be for his kids. This episode is special, it shows us, the listener, how the road to healing begins with you, and also ends with you.…
In this episode, we look into expectations and the many things that showed up around it with Segev. From being obese with skin issues and diagnosed with an autoimmune deficiency disease to the start of his healing, which began when he stopped giving a shit. Learn how he began to honor himself and stopped being guided by expectations. Find out how he began trusting himself and most importantly owning who he was. The road is never easy, but when you hear people like Segev share their experiences, you begin to see the road traveled on is really the journey to something else.…
In this Weekend Nugget I reflect on all the things 2021 and make a request of you, the listeners. Something new is brewing in the horizon and I am eager and hungry to share it with you real soon. In the meantime, enjoy another Nugget for the weekend and thank you for keeping me in your ears while we create another year of insights into divorce. Happy New Year!…
In this episode, we listen to Segev speak about how important it is for him that his kids know that they are loved. He shares how he used to think that being in their lives all the time meant being a good father, especially during the first six months. He shares how being present for them, Chaperoning field trips, picking up, dropping off. Parent-teacher conferences. How this made him feel like a good father. Listen to the episode and learn what version of himself was needed at different times to be present. You want to listen to all of it and how it took him 8 years to reach acceptance with his ex as their mom. Accepting how she shows up as a mom, how his expectations or ideas of what he wants her to be is met with better or worse. What he does to be okay with the obstacles. Be ready to hear what worked for him and how he sources his steps. As a dad of two, with an Ex who is not quite yet an X, it takes constant reflection and mindfulness to find the light in situations. Segev provides a slice of what that looks like for him in this episode.…
Segev is the first person we have a conversation with within DTF6M that is technically not divorced, but has gone through or is going through what a divorced person goes through. He has two boys, the youngest with special needs and he is a Masculine Embodiment Relationship Coach. What I learned from Segev in this episode and the ones to come which I hope you will listen to was the acceptance of what life places on his doorstep. He navigates his conversations and obstacles with deep reflection and observation. He ends this episode with his thoughts of what being a good man was to him and begins by stating that he left the marriage several times, even though he is still not divorced. He shines a light on what honoring himself really means and declares that he did not know how to in the beginning. How that was a reflection of his upbringing and available knowledge. Segev shares a side of him most would not. He tells you he has cried without apologizing for his manhood. He paints the picture of what he went through and how he overcame in a way we can all understand and relate to. He does all this and more in his conversations. I invite you to listen to all of his episodes in order so that you can learn how his story unfolded.…
In our final episode with Daniel, we close this series by looking back at the beginning and saying out loud what most don’t admit. We don’t know how to navigate a divorce. No one goes into it a marriage thinking about this ending as an option. We don’t prep for the process, or the life that comes after divorce, it’s new territory. He also talks about dating after divorce and how that was for him. Giving some suggestions on what he would do differently, which is not date immediately after his divorce. He shares some personal experiences about it. He is also a big voice when it comes to speaking up about what works for you, and what doesn’t. Sharing and expressing yourself so that you get what you are missing. All this and more inside this episode. My personal takeaway from Daniel’s conversation is that we all have the potential to be genuine when we speak it into existence. No matter how messy it can sometimes get, when we speak up about what works and what doesn’t, we can move forward in a way that compliments who we are. If you want to know more about Daniel and what he is up to, you can find him on Instagram at @daniel.herrold, or his website www.DanielHerrold.com . He is also a co-founding member of a great community called Divorced over 40, which can be found locally across most of the United States, and more directly at www.Divorcedover40.com .…
In this episode, Daniel talks about the importance of finding your tribe. Describe what that looks like, what qualities they should have to understand your situation, and how important it is for them to have been divorced. How having that common ground makes a difference. He talks about dating right after the divorce and how that is not the best idea, considering the healing process and what dating entails. This episode is about the pitfalls he himself fell into immediately after the divorce that he advises avoiding if you are fortunate enough to have a choice. He talks about how jumping into dating only prolonged the healing process for him. Emphasizing the importance of healing and the time it takes, how it varies from person to person based on his experience. Pointing out that going out or avoiding the obvious will not move you forward any faster. This episode is a friendly reminder that what we think will heal us, might not be what we need to heal us.…
In this episode of the Nugget, we explore what the Unicorn Divorce is, how to create it, and I also share some tools that you can apply today. From the moment you decide this is something you want to consider, all the way through to the day-to-day management. Please understand that the Unicorn divorce begins and ends with you. Having this kind of divorce does not happen without effort from one of the parties involved. It takes clear communication, compassion, and consistency to make it happen. It takes a real intention. The hope for you, the listener, inside this particular episode is that you leave understanding what a Unicorn Divorce is, how to create it for yourself, and what are some tools you can apply today. If you leave with one of these things I'm happy, but I am committed that you leave with all three. I had a Unicorn Divorce, as did Daniel Herrold, Episode 30. Check these out and hear for yourself what we did to make it happen.…
In this episode, Daniel shares how he discovered himself and what that process looked like for him. From living in a 600 sq. ft. apartment to driving a beat-up car with 180k miles on it. He speaks about the different phases one goes through in the beginning and how taking actions plays an important role. He shares how he invested more time with the people he loves and less time with those he didn't. After the divorce, he began to think of all the things he hadn’t done that he wished he had. The places he hadn’t seen and the projects he hadn’t pursued. In talking about the process, we can see why Daniel had the unicorn divorce. He represents something in all of us that most do not exercise. The ability to communicate what we want, the time to think of how to achieve it, and the most important of all. Nurturing the communities that embrace the person who we want to be, not the person they think we should be. Trust your process!…
In this episode, Daniel shares about his relationship with the ex during the divorce. How they agreed on things and how they communicated instead of lunging towards representation and pettiness. He reveals how they kept the same parenting styles, shared time with the kids together, and did it all against the advice of legally inclined relatives and advising friends. This episode is filled with hope and kindness, and it has their kid’s best interest guiding it, not the race to win against the ex. I think that if you are someone who is in it right now, about to pick an attorney, or just lost about how to be in the process. Daniel will shine some light for you on what worked for him. He had a Unicorn divorce.…
In this nugget, we travel to the reasons for the topic. Where did it begin, how has it evolved, and why it is so important that we understand it. Marriage is a beautiful union of two souls into a commitment that ends in death do you part. Pretty heavy stuff. This conversation, I believe, brings some clarity to the bigger picture, which is why did we choose to begin this journey that ultimately brought you to my doorstep, podstep in this instance. My hope is that after you listen to this episode you find a perspective that gives you freedom around the divorce process. That you do not resign to the idea of marriage, but that you source the information and make up new guidelines that work for you, as well as, your new partner.…
In this episode, Daniel speaks about what it was like living alone. The moment when the eerily quiet arrived and the feelings started to come in as he settled into his new apartment. He shares how he watched a lot of Netflix and did anything he could to not embrace the loneliness. He also shares what it was like when he realized all the responsibilities he would assume as a single dad, that he didn’t have before. From doing the accounting to making the meals, he had to learn 22 years of stuff he had never done before. But the real gold of the episode is towards the end, where he talks about not guilting his children when it was his time to be alone with them. He shares how he communicated with his ex about it, and the realization he had just after that conversation. If you are a parent, you want to hear this. It’s an EPIC insight.…
Meet Daniel Herrold, father of 3 young women, and a divorce conversation active participant. Daniel is a successful man, both on and off the divorce platform, and in this series of episodes, you are going to see what it was like for him to embrace the challenges that he faced during his divorce. From learning to cook for himself, the kids, to dating again. He walks us through the process of starting over from day one. In this specific episode, he speaks about what the first six months were like. How the emotional theme of the process was shame and guilt, and how those emotions still linger in today’s world, years later. Daniel explains from a man’s perspective how divorce is viewed as a loss to men, and how we don’t like losing, and he explains how that made him feel. He gives you insight into a man's thought process. A valuable insight for those of you looking to understand. He also talks about who initiated his divorce and what that process was like. How he knew the marriage wasn’t working, but the idea of divorce never...…
In this episode, we look at fear from a different perspective. Distinguishing what it is by definition, what it could look like inside of a divorce, and what can be done to not have it be so consuming. Anything that stops you from moving in the direction you want to move towards, or inhibits you from being the person you want to be, usually carries some sort of fear around it. The beauty about fear is that once you distinguish it, slowly but surely it begins to not have such an overwhelming grip on you. I share a personal story of what I went through in my first weeks that was fear-based, stopping me from my potential. It took time for me before I could actually look at it and understand it. When you are in the soup, it takes time to understand or see what is blocking you. Luckily, I had very good friends to guide me through it and help me set up a path that gave me steps to keep the momentum going. This episode gives you an example of what is possible when you get in action around something wants to stop you. It gives you tools on what you can do if your feelings are too much, and the results you want too little. I hope you enjoy the episode.…
In our final episode with Amy, we begin with the conversation with what the common link between domestic survivors often is, and then complete our episode with happiness is possible. An arc worthy of a rainbows path is how I would share this episode. Amy shares how when you go through one aspect of abuse, it often has more to it, that is hidden deeper. She advises to not try to heal from one isolated incident, but as a whole. Her experience with the amount of pain she has endured is her credibility. If you need more, then read her book, “My life on Eggshells” . Or you can visit her website and learn about what she is creating. Whether you listen from start to finish, or you pick and choose according to the titles. However you absorb Amy’s episodes, you can be certain, that the tile of the episode will deliver. Amy has the experience of a war veteran and the calm of a saint. I consider myself lucky to have experienced her story, and even luckier than I am able to share it with you. I feel confident in saying that you will gain plenty of insights into how to survive domestic abuse with her story. If you are someone who is going through domestic abuse, mental abuse, or any kind of abuse. Reach out and get into communication with people like Amy, who know what it is like from first-hand experience. Reach out to me or any other guest on this podcast. We are all a yes to being of service in providing information. This is why we do it, we share our stories for you to find strength and hope. The better future starts with your choice to begin creating it.…
In this episode, we start with what’s important, which is the values you live by. Amy shares how being guided by those values gave her something far greater than the reality of the situation. For example, in her story, she has spoken of what it was like to be abused. How it looked like and what she did in the process of when it was her reality. Back then it was important to try to make it work. Whereas today, it is important that she not tolerate any abuse whatsoever. She talks about what she loves in her new reality called today, like her morning routine, and connecting with herself in various actions, like, yoga, meditation, and being of service to others through her coaching and book. Never forgetting her past, or diluting it with negative impressions. She instead explains how she is grateful for her journey because it has allowed her to connect with others through the experience she endured and stills experiences as it is not yet complete, years after.…
In this episode, I look back at when this started, what happened, and where am I today. Taking in the many conversations that have occurred and how things have grown and developed as a result of this podcast. In looking back, one begins to ask themself where is the finish line, did it serve its purpose, and is it time to pass on the torch. The process of podcasting has been filled with lots of space to understand, forgive, and create new ways of being that allow a more fulfilled and self-expressed version of myself to come alive. Now, at almost 200 episodes and over 30 conversations with the most amazing people. A new adventure is on the horizon…
In this episode, Amy raises an important question. The importance of knowing what a healthy relationship looks like. What are the green flags? She explains how she is grateful for her journey and how it has left her humbled in the process. How she holds no resentment towards her ex. She talks about how she learned that it was her who needed help for herself and how that was never in sightline. Because it was always about him, she never stopped to work on herself. Then she tells on herself, saying how if she was to truly put herself before him, then perhaps things… Find out what that is, inside this episode.…
In this episode, Amy explains a bit more about what it looks like to be gaslighted. She shares how you simply don’t know, especially if the other person provides positive reinforcement that has you believe it will be okay. She gives us personal examples that explain what it looked like for her, what she went through, and how she persevered. At the time she was not aware of the psychological abuse or what gaslighting was. She also shares how her ex was masterful at it, which was why she remained in the relationship. This episode has plenty of insights, but my personal takeaway was how she explains her situation. She looks at it from today's perspective and can see all the red flags, and she explains it in a manner very easy to learn from. This is a great episode to become related to what happens when you are with someone who is gaslighting you or being emotionally abusive. It informs you of what it looks like from the perspective of someone who was abused, has identified it, and is now thriving.…
In this episode, l take a moment to look at shaming from a different perspective. I look at it from all the conversations that have taken place since the divorce. The commonalities we all share and the resemblances, of which, shaming is one of them. I shared how it affected me once my divorce was known. The price I had to pay emotionally when I found out, and how I managed it after I was aware of it. The thing about shaming is that more often than not, we don't know it exists. Then when we find out, we blame ourselves, or others for not knowing, which is silly. I hope this episode brings you closer to understanding that shaming has a pattern, and that when you know what that pattern is, you can have a voice as to whether it will affect you, or infect you.…
In this episode Amy speaks about what it was like to be pregnant, and how the toxicity of the relationship affected her breast feeding, as well as overall health. How things didn’t change with him as a result of her pregnancy, they actually became worse. His sense of entitlement grew. Creating more fear on her part, which began for her daily upon waking up. She goes on to explain what she did to try to make it work by visiting a psychologist, but after the third session, he stormed out after trying to prove that he had no issues. This was when she was told for the first time that she was in a domestic abuse relationship. Imagine a world where you have to be told you are in an abusive relationship. This was Amy's world. This episode is gut wrenching. I, personally, cannot imagine a world where what Amy describes could be considered everyday living conditions, but for Amy, it was. Listen to what happened, and what she did to overcome such an obstacle.…
Say hello to Amy Hill, a native Australian. A mother of two, an author, a speaker, a wife, and an empowerment coach. I learned about Amy through her instagram @TheFreedomMentor where she was speaking about gas lighting. Shining an important light on the the darkness that gas lighting is. She was exposing what it looks like, and how we can do something about it. Supplying tools for the masses based on her experience, and asking for nothing in return but your attention. I must admit that I was curious to learn more about gas lighting from her perspective, but I was not ready for this conversation. Especially when it started with I experienced 10 years of domestic violence. The beauty about these divorce conversations with individuals like Amy, is that you can never look at someone and consider that you know their story. As Amy continued to speak, one sentence was more drastic than the other. I listened to a woman share her story with a complete stranger on a global platform about the struggles of her past, from a continent on the other side of the world. Sharing her story with such vulnerability, such truth and openness, and her reason for doing so was that someone might find strength from it, nothing more. My belief is that the deeper we dive into healing, the more that is uncovered to heal, but in this interview with Amy. I learned that no matter how bad it was, is, or is getting. It is when we decide to alter reality, that we begin to heal. So, wherever you are, that has you here today, reading these words. I invite you to listen to Amy’s story and allow her to share and contribute to you about what gas lighting is, amongst the other parts of her incredible story. Allow how she healed herself, and turned her situation around, to be heard by you. The entire conversation is filled with gold, but like all gold, it must be mined to be discovered.…
In this episode I share about how I felt I was not good enough, and what I did to acknowledge it. I even go on a bit of a rant towards the end, not a big one, but enough to notice that the topic had an affect on me. Like so many of us when we are lost, not feeling good enough played with me. For a short while it made me believe things that only existed in my head, created by me, but felt as if it was real and others were able to see it. When listening to this episode my hope is that you learn what it is that causes you to feel this, and that it becomes real enough for you to identify it. In doing so, I believe it helped me in not succumbing to the effects of it. It was acknowledging it that gave me power over my thoughts and assisted in dismantling this awful mis interpretation that happened more frequent than I care to admit in the first months. We are all good enough, even at our lowest we are always good enough. I hope my story helps you to distinguish, create, and notice if you ever fall victim to it.…
We have reached our last episode with Tracy, and in doing so she leaves us with an important message. Nothing is impossible. It may seem like it is, but there is no worse case scenario you can’t overcome. She even goes on to give you insight into self worth, from her perspective of course, and then supplies you with supporting evidence of how it worked. I could write so much more about what you could get from this last episode, but I believe it should be heard, rather than written. So, I invite you to listen to all of Tracy’s episodes, starting from the beginning. Allow yourself the time to hear what she had to create to turn her situation around, and listen to who she is today as a result of who she had to be in her yesterday. Who we have the opportunity to become inside our darkest hours is the greatest gift you and I have when someone like Tracy shares her triumph over the past. I hope you find her conversation and insights as rewarding as I did. Till next time, thank you for listening!…
In this episode you will hear Tracy speak about how she is an optimistic person. How she tends to see the funny side of every situation, and how she made excuses for him. How she overlooked things, and adapted to what she didn’t want from her life. It is there that she will begin to talk about her new life, the new her. She will share how her weakness is what kept him there, then once she knew who she was, it didn’t matter to her whether he stayed or went. This episode will provide you an understanding of what it takes to step into a new life. While exposing the heartbreak of realizing that the person she deemed worthy was not interested in knowing why she was unhappy. It will reveal what being selfish is, or isn’t, and give you strength and standards on how she chose to be treated. Tracy will tell you her truth. She will admit to something we all have troubles facing. What I refer to is near the end of the episode. Like all realizations, it is subtle, it’s quick, and it’s simple. The biggest lesson anyone can hope to have in their tool chest, in my opinion, completes this episode.…
In this episode I speak about dating, and dating apps. What it is like to participate when you are not a stud muffin, just an ordinary guy, a strong six in my mind. I only say that because I hear stories from my lady friends, and it seems the nice guys finish last statement rings true when you are too nice and not good looking. Dating in today's age requires good looks for good responses, for the most part. The amount of thinking that goes into building a profile, the results, and the consistent growing that happens with or without your desire for it. Well, it takes time to get to when you are below a solid seven. So much has changed around getting to the actual date, which is why I decided to speak up about it. I have started my process into the dating world, so I hope to vomit my thoughts onto you, the listener, in hopes that you can evade my pitfalls. I will say this about the process. When you do get to be on a date, or have a conversation that you can go home with, and feel good about. It makes the learning curve all worth it. Regardless of whether you have sparks with the person. Just being with another human is a major contribution to you once you begin dating after divorce. So, if you can. Go out on dates, talk to people and enjoy their company. Learn who they are, and who they do not want to be, and do it without placing them in a box. Don't limit yourself, or miss out on getting to know someone because you are checking boxes for a story you probably adopted from somewhere that is not based on reality. Also, don't catphish, that is just wrong.…
In this episode with Tracy, she digs deeper within her story to learn that what it was really about was having a relationship with herself. She explores how much is invested into the actual partnership of being married, without us being complete first. She distinguishes how her parents' relationship was something she had wished to model, but the main ingredients for that recipe were not there inside her marriage. How could they be, the clues were all there that they would not be from the beginning. Tracy also shares what it was like when she separated, how it made her nervous. She talks about the expectations that propelled her into her marriage, and the stigma of not having a partner by a certain age. She also talks about the decision process, and how she was not ready to make it, but the influence had a strong enough presence for her to say yes.…
In this episode Tracy begins with sharing how she had no idea how to get through it. The steps to move forward, or how to handle a divorce were not something she had access to. So, she did what she knew she could do. Things like seeing a therapist and working through what she could. Although she wasn’t completely convinced that it was working, that led her to seeking a second therapist who would then introduce her to meditation and guide her along that path. It is taking the steps forward toward understanding that kept revealing the process for her. As she reflects inside our conversation about what it was like during that time, she reveals how some of her friends had been through a divorce, yet she had never talked about it with them. How having that available to her was a big piece of her healing. It would become another stepping stone towards allowing her to accept help from other people. One of the things that was present for me inside this episode you is how when you listen to yourself, and then share what is inside. You begin to take steps towards healing with a greater velocity. You begin to uncover the muck of what you were, as you start to create the you that you really want to become. Healing takes many shapes and forms, as the many conversations within this podcast has revealed to me, but the common denominator amongst all of us who have endured a divorce is speaking up, and seeking ways to express ourselves. In marriage, we assume this imaginary role of what is expected of us, or of the relationship. And oftentimes, you can hear in the stories how important it is when someone finds themselves again. As you will in Tracy's story. They all begin with that one step, and then, like the ball of yarn left near the curious kitten. It begins to unravel. So, if you have a moment to just close your eyes and take in a breathe. I invite you to remember the times when you were happy, recall all the details. Who was there, what you were wearing, or when it was. Or you can think of the things that constrain you at the present time. What your mind may circling over and over again and causing you discomfort or weariness. Think of whatever it may be that weighs you down, or elevates you. Then create the next day, month, and year to be bigger than where you are at. To be brighter. Then share what it is that you want with three or more people. Paint the picture for them in detail of how it looks to have it. I promise you, having it become a reality will begin there.…
In this wonderful episode I look at what it is that these two words represent. We begin with what webster defines them as, and then I share my two cents on what it represents to me. This episode does not approach the topic from a first six months perspective, but had I heard this within the first six months of my story, I believe I would have been further along in my process. Having distinguished what both these words represent to me being here today, and then having heard the episode you are about to hear before submitting it. I was able to notice the value these two words had prior to my divorce, and the value they have today. I make an attempt to look at how my thoughts were created around the two, the influences, and the way it shaped me into today. I make an attempt to detail the effect it has had on my choices, as well as, my life. My hope is that it opens up a new thought process for you, as it did for me. Becoming aware of something so intrinsic has allowed me freedom around the choices i make today. I no longer have the weight, nor the significance around the two that once kept me from soaring or exploring beyond what I know or have known. My personal takeaway from this episode is that I am, whatever I say, that I am. That I am happy because I honor who it is that I say, that I am. And it is within those choices that my sexuality, my sexual combinations, and the way I create my sexually charged process is a direct expression of who I am. And that it is different and the same each time. So, when I look at the partners that life has placed on my menu, I am both grateful and appreciative. They have navigated to me to the person that I am today. A man who switches from sex and love, sometimes in the same thrust. And that whichever thrust is occuring, it is okay with me, so long as it is what I desire.…
In this episode we travel deeper into what happened to get to the divorce. How Tracy began to understand, and what she did to get grounded, physically and mentally. She explains what it felt like to be confused and then gives us a clear picture of when she realized she was being emotionally abused, and how she refused to see it for what it was. She shares how because she was a functional person, she blocked those painful experiences from herself, at that time, so that she could continue to keep functioning with the day to day. Some other points of value inside this episode is her ability to set boundaries for herself, and what she did with the realization that she had invested over a decade trying to make the relationship work. She shares how she lost a piece of herself in participating in that process. She also shares how things began to shift when she started to inquire how she was being nurtured inside the marriage. How becoming present to the notion that she was not being nourished gave her access to a different way of managing the relationship. All this and more are just a click away and waiting for you inside this episode.…
Say hello to Tracy Poizner, Holistic Practitioner, Certified Life Coach, Podcaster, Writer, and so much more, as you will soon discover over the next few weeks. Overall, she is an accomplished woman who at one point did not think divorce was an option. She wasn’t happy in her marriage, but no one around her was divorced, and divorce was not a readily available conversation. Her story brings up some important things to consider when it comes to traditional views, and being informed. Tracy had to discover how to share that she was unhappy, she had to learn how to ask for help. She had to create something that wasn’t there for her, from scratch, without the agreement that it was even possible. Also, not knowing what to do, or having any references to be guided by made her choice to begin the divorce process that much more unknown. When you listen to her story, imagine a world where divorce is not in the language around you. It is not spoken of, nurtured, or understood. Then listen to her speak and share how it happened for her. Each sentence strengthens the one before it. Every choice supported by what she believed, and each lesson taken as an opportunity to grow from. Tracy represents each woman, and man, that didn’t know how to navigate uncharted waters, but was left to captain their ship out of a storm. From her concerns of divorce, to telling her daughter for the first time, you can see the obstacles she faced and the calm in which she faced them. You can hear the tools she used to build her exit. Proving once again, that when we face the struggles in front of us, one at a time. We can endure almost anything. I really invite you to consider that wherever you are in your process, like Tracy in hers, you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Don’t resist what is provided for you in this life, embrace it. Manifest what you want, what you really want, and stand there. When you can dream of the life you want, the road begins to reveal itself, and then all there is to do is for you to step towards it.…
In this episode I talk about how my story had me without sex for almost 2.5 years. I talk about why that happened, and why I chose to go so long without. I share what it is that had me be intimate with someone after such a long time, and what that looked like. I talk about fucking and making love, and what I find to be the difference between the two after going so long without the touch of a woman. I would like to believe that I was not ready to be with someone during that time, but the truth is that I was so scared of being rejected I didn't even try. I think that if someone had found me attractive, or wanted me in that way, I would not had been able to see it. I was walking with my head facing the ground while holding my heart in my hand. I never looked up long enough to entertain the idea that I was wanted. After my divorce, that part of me went silent, I guess. I think the reason I even recorded this podcast is because it happened. Not only did it happen, but I am not ashamed, bothered, or have given it any destructive meaning. I never questioned why it wasn't there. It was just something that wasn't happening. Why I went this long without sex motivates me to shed another layer with you and record it within a weekend nugget. As I reflect now, I recall wanting to be touched, to be wanted sexually. Yet, It wasn't till someone reached out and made the first move that I was even awake to the possibility. Awake to feeling sexy, appreciated and wanted. In so many ways, this time away from being touched has given me access to something far greater than being held. I find myself not apologizing for what I want now, and being more transparent in sharing what I need. I find myself not thinking about someone else first, as I have for so many years. Which may sound selfish to some, and I am okay with that. Being first is so foreign to me that I embrace whatever judgement comes with it. To be so present that I can place myself first, has been a gift. It has given me the confidence to know and share who I am. It has reminded me that if I am not happy, how could I make someone else happy. So, wherever you are. I hope this episode reminds you of how important it is to embrace your process, however it reveals itself to you. To share your story to whomever will listen, and to always place yourself first before anyone else. You are that important.…
In this last episode with Dawn Alyse, we talk about what she wants for herself, where she has set limits, and what she doesn’t want to be known for. From the time we began this conversation with Dawn till this very last episode, we learned so much about her, but nothing will prepare you for what she reveals at the end of episode 27.6. As a listener, like you, I learned about Dawn. Her story, who she is, and most importantly who she wants to be. For the first time, like you, I heard about her ex, her business employees, and what it was like to acclimate into her very own skin after divorce. For the first time, I found myself listening to an episode more than once. Some of her episodes, I chose to listen to several times in order to better understand the severity of what I was privy to have heard. This episode is one of those. I couldn’t understand why someone would want to run away from family, a business, and the very thing she most desires. Dawn discovers something for herself in this episode, and we are there as an audience to witness it. All of it. Her silence, her discovery, and the moment that the seed was planted. The seed of hope. As I watched it again and again, the moment became clearer and clearer. The moment when someone sees that something they thought was too far to reach becomes close enough to hold. The moment when we give up the story of “this is not possible” for the dream that “this is possible”. We are there, front row, in the theater of what is Dawn's life. Watching the biggest breakthrough someone could have for themselves. Them choosing to face the fear. To move in a direction towards what they want, and not away from it. But if you think you will understand what I am writing, or grasp all of it by just hearing this one episode. I want to invite you to consider, that, it is not possible. Like life, there are no shortcuts. So, go back and listen to the entire story, starting at 27.1. Know who this woman is, and what she went through, so you can understand why the very last minutes of this conversation are so profound. We are all experiencing different versions of the same story in this life. Some choose to face them sooner than others, but those that face it, like Dawn, and share their victories, as well as, their defeats. They reveal doors. Those doors are the fears we could face. To move through them we must choose to open them, and most times that means we must endure things we much rather forget, or not stir up. But, it is only when you have a choice, that you can choose. It is only when you become aware that something is missing, that you will search for it. So when you are ready, make your choice. Not a second sooner. I hope you enjoy Dawn's story, I did. Wherever you are emotionally when you hear this episode, know that it is perfect. You are perfect. Know that you are not broken, and that nothing needs to be fixed. Take solace in knowing that other before you have managed, and that so will you. BE Courageous. BE Vulnerable. It makes a difference.…
In this episode we talk about some seriously unnerving things. Dawn creates what it was like to live with an abusive person. Not physically, how it started, but mentally. She talks about how it began with him stalking her, and her believing that he was just showing interest in her. She talks about what she did when learned she was pregnant, how she left the state for a month, and how he was at her front porch when she returned, uninvited. One of the things I want you to be mindful of inside this episode, is that you will not hear her blame anyone other than herself when it comes down to the time lost and the choices made. You will hear how she questions why she stayed and what had her be with someone whom she knew was not good for her since day one. Listen to how easy it is for her to live someone else's idea of what our happiness is. How the people around her, even her very own kids, were trained to treat her as if she was the one that is crazy. Dawn is not crazy, nor is she emotional, but she was led to believe that she was. She was led to believe that it was her throughout the marriage that needed more. If this sounds familiar, then tune in to this episode. Dawn is a woman who is turning this abuse around and facing it head on. She is sharing her tools, as well as her insights with you, the audience, in hopes that you might not have to endure 22 years of something that under no circumstance is worth it. Not for the kids, not for your health, not for anything. This episode is packed with useful material for someone dealing in an abusive relationship, or recovering from one. I am grateful that this story is being shared, that this man is being exposed, and that Dawn gets to voice the trauma that she has endured so that others can learn from it. It takes a lot of courage to tell your very own story. It takes trust, vulnerability, and moving forward past your own mind to attain the freedom we seek, and deserve. The beauty of Dawn’s story, and so many like it, is that when it is told. The oppressors, the manipulators, and the gas lighters alike get diluted. They get a spotlight on them, as the victims rise up and reclaim their own stories. When you find a way to amplify your story, it allows others to hear it, and to answer the call of support. When we echo stories like Dawn’s, her ex has to face greater numbers, as opposed to the one woman he has concentrated on for so long. It changes the rules of the game, and it changes the way Dawn and women like her survive and thrive.…
In this episode, we are once again joined by Michele Traina as we discuss "How to be alone" during a divorce. The emotions that come up, the obstacles we encounter, and who we become in the process, as we learn new ways of being. Michele and I examine what it was like when we experienced it, and share some insights into what we did, and how we did it. I remember thinking to myself before recording this episode how important it is to talk about topics like these, which happened to be inspired by Michele. She had suggested some topics to consider that could make a difference. When I finally became aware of what this topic could mean to someone, I had a brief moment. I, normally create what the points are to what is that is going to be said in a Weekend Nugget, but I leave it loose enough where it can be genuine to the moment. Yet, this time was different. We both freestyled, and allowed what was to come have a place to land, but nothing more. We started with the statement, and then gave in to the process. Giving it the feeling that it was exactly what it needed to be. Becoming a solid piece of reference to anyone who may be going through, or just came out of this feeling no one really knows how to be guided through, which is being alone. I trust that the episode has many little gems inside it. Insights that may serve you in your understanding of what to expect, or be like during the alone process. But what I know you will get is the truth of what it was like for each of us. Being alone, in whatever location you find yourself in, or with whomever may be near you, like a friend, or a relative. Is always going to be your process. Trusting yourself to be in the moment, and not deny what arises will be your biggest guide. Sometimes it takes reaching the bottom of something to know you can't travel any deeper. My hope is that you choose to turn around. Explore what it is, that has you feel like it is a bottom, learn from it, and love the process. What does not break you, will make you stronger.…
In this episode, Dawn examines her previous relationships to realize that there was nothing wrong with them now, they were part of being young, and falling out of love. Whereas, her most recent marriage was trifled with a lot of darkness. Her ex was not a good person from the start. As we continued our conversation, you can hear the trauma that still lives inside her, along with the fear of someone whom she once lived with. From gas lighting to manipulation, Dawn shares her side of the story with a new conviction towards life. She examines why she stayed, and she wouldn't stay or advise others not to stay as a result of knowing what she now knows. She looks at how she drew her strength, and what the signs were for her. Sharing them with you so that you don't fall for the same mistakes. But, most importantly, she accepts responsibility for giving up her happiness, for handing it over. She doesn’t blame him for what he did, she is just not accepting it ever again!…
In this episode we talk about Dawn’s business, her employees, and the value of meditation. We talk about some techniques that she has implemented into her life to create balance, and the trauma’s still present for her, like sleeping patterns, and her way of naturally being post divorce. The gold in the episode is how she reveals the release of having the need to do everything. If you feel like you can’t stop doing everything, this episode is a must listen to. Dawn does a great job of relaying what she does, and did, to overcome that feeling of doing everything for everyone. She also shares about how her relationship started with her ex, and how ugly it got, and still is. This episode opens up a new way of listening to Dawn, she reveals how much of her story is in ours. She peels back the layers of her life for you to observe and learn from. It does not get any more vulnerable than this.…
In this week's episode we share the mic with Michele Traina (Episode 22) to talk about how to manage the first week of a divorce. We get into what that was like for us. We talk about what happened, what we did, and what we suggest is a good idea to do if you are in that situation. It was an absolute pleasure to have michele with us inside this conversation. It felt that this particular topic needed a female's perspective to really bring it home for all of us. I hope you enjoy listening to it, as much as we enjoyed creating it for you.…
In this episode we learn about the beginning of a divorce and the effects of it. For Dawn, it was normal to share everywhere she was going, with everyone, all the time. Having the feeling that she needed permission to do things was the first thing that became apparent to her when the relationship was complete. She recalls how she had said to her kids that she was going somewhere, and that the kids were not interested in knowing. Not because they didn't care, but because they didn't need to know where she was at all times, like she thought they did. Mainly because that was how she operated with her ex. Something that is especially important to Dawn, and she speaks about how it was devastating, is how when you are in a toxic relationship, your body takes on the weight from the negativity. She speaks about how she had frozen shoulders and couldn’t lift her arms amongst other physical issues that ceased to exist once she ended the relationship. Can you imagine how crazy that is. Your body takes on the physical attributes of your mental state. All this and more inside this episode.…
Say hello to Dawn Alyse, mother of three grown children, an entrepreneur, and recently divorced from a 22 year marriage. As you tune in to each episode, prepare yourself for what you are about to endure. Dawn has gone through some serious obstacles to get to where she is today. Currently in debt., in court, and in love with herself again. She tells us how one of the hardest things she had to deal with was the guilt of leaving her relationship. She also shared how she was going to leave, but then she got pregnant and stayed, and how that happened more than once. She explains how she was programmed to stay, to be tough, and to suppress her emotions. This conversation dives deep into the soul of what being Dawn has been, and she allows us, the audience, to follow her on a guided tour of what she has had to overcome to get to where she is today. Brace yourself, you will hear things you cannot unhear.…
In this episode I talk about something personal and what it means. I read you something I wrote and then reflect on how that makes me feel. I shed a layer of thoughts that I believe makes my situation transparent. As I listened to it prior to posting, I was thinking if I should release it, then moments later chose to do it. I chose to do it because being transparent is important to me. It's the line between being vulnerable or being boxed. When I set out to do this and become a voice for this process, I invited people to be courageous, to be vulnerable, because it makes a difference. Each time I face a fear or am stifled by a limitation and then act on it, I am reminded that my fears, if left to drive me, would always send me in the wrong direction. I am still human and I more often than not am stifled, but not today, not today SATAN. I cannot express to you how important it has been for me to speak out and up about what I see, what I observe, and what I find to be useful for those of us going through or healing from a divorce. Speaking has been my ultimate access to releasing the past and creating a future. I invite you to consider that speaking up and out will do something for you. BE Courageous, BE Vulnerable. IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE…
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