My Daily Expectations Bring Me to Tears! Day 160.

Jerry Banfield

Would you like to see my daily schedule and workflow featuring everything from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed? How do the expectations I place on what I am supposed to accomplish every day bring me into crying, depression, and anxiety? What works for me to let these emotions pass and return into the happiness, love, and joy I spend 95% of my waking hours in all naturally today? Will you watch this video to get answers to these questions and motivation to look within for your own unique opportunities for balance? Every day I schedule around 4 hours of family time, 5 hours of work, and 2 hours of service along with time to read, listen to books, and call friends and family on the phone during my dog walks. Amazingly with what seems like the perfect schedule often leaves me feeling like I have to do meaningful work online in order to be worthy of love and belonging. Throughout the transitions, I often get triggered into shame when I do not instantly make a perfect transition between work and family time or arrive late to my AA meeting. Yesterday this found me laying on the couch for about thirty minutes feeling depressed during family time and experiencing painful anxiety just before that as it was time to stop creating content on the Internet and start hanging out with my daughter. An hour later I was in tears in the backseat of our Toyota RAV4 Hybrid crying because I felt not good enough despite contributing and receiving more in one day than I usually did in most weeks or months of my adult life. Even with what looks like a day in heaven of my life, I share what is challenging for me to reach out and be of service to you as well as to seek to continue to learn how to love unconditionally in my life today. I believe a life free from all depression, frustration, anxiety, fear, and anger is possible without using any medication, substances, or outside forces to numb or obscure any of the pain. Thank you for reading about what has been the greatest challenge in my life recently with setting crazy high expectations on myself and my life during day 160 of Happier People vlog and podcast! If you enjoyed reading or watching this and would like to continue learning with me, will you enroll at The University of Jerry Banfield today at http://u.jerrybanfield.com/ or start with free coupons to a few of my courses at https://jerrybanfield.com/freecourses/ or read my blog at https://steemit.com/@jerrybanfield/ to see the newest updates? Thank you very much for reading or watching this and I hope you have a wonderful day! Love, Jerry Banfield