Welcome to the Candle In A Dark Room podcast! I will tell you the story of my life, how I survived trauma & how I live in recovery today. I will also have discussions with experts in the trauma field as well as other survivors who will share their experiences with trauma & give advice on how they found light in their darkness. Survivors of all sexual violence, mental health, eating disorders, sex trafficking, & anything else trauma related. We talk about all of the "off limit" subjects that ...
…
continue reading
Season 3, Episode 3 "She Rises" w/ Kayla Hayes ✨is LIVE✨ the LINKS IN BIO 🎧 This weeks beautiful guest is the brave Kayla Hayes. Kayla is 23 years old and an advocate, speaker and author. She rose like an angel and walked away from a past filled with childhood sexual abuse and teenage domestic violence. The tragedies she endured stole her identity,…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 3, Ep 2: Fostering love and healing in the world of trauma w/ Rachel Garrett
43:20
43:20
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
43:20
Season 3, Episode 2 "Fostering love and healing in the world of trauma w/ Rachel Garrett" ✨is LIVE✨ the LINKS IN BIO 🎧 This weeks guest is Rachel Garrett. Rachel is a former high-school history teacher, a mother of two, a licensed CASA (Court appointed state advocate), and a foster mom. She is currently in a Master of Child and Adolescent Developme…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 3, Ep 1: "Finding the light in my darkness" w/ Jaimee Johnson
1:28:09
1:28:09
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:28:09
Season 3, Episode 1 "Finding the light in my darkness" w/ Jaimee Johnson is now✨LIVE✨ the LINKS IN BIO 🎧 Jaimee Johnson is a lived experience expert on domestic sex trafficking and the Chief Executive Officer and Founder of the Sisters of the Streets nonprofit organization. She also holds the title of mother, motivational speaker, advocate, first r…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 20 “Societies perpetuation of silence" w/ Kate Oseen
1:04:42
1:04:42
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:04:42
Season 2, Episode 20 “Societies perpetuation of silence w/ Kate Oseen is now✨LIVE✨ the LINKS IN BIO 🎧 Kate is a mom of two, wife and a passionate digital creator, but she’s well known on social media as an advocate for human trafficking! With over 63K Instagram followers, Kate uses her platform to educate and amplify preventative information to bri…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 19 “When I found HER” w/ Stevie Croisant
56:43
56:43
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
56:43
Season 2, Episode 19 “When I found HER” w/ Stevie Croisant is now ✨LIVE✨ LINK IN BIO 🎧On this episode I had the pleasure of interviewing my friend, fellow advocate, survivor and founder of the nonprofit organization “We Are HER” thats purpose is to provide a community for survivors of domestic abuse or sexual assault to become healed, empowered, an…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 18 "Making justice & healing synonymous” w/ Marlee Liss"
47:45
47:45
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
47:45
Season 2, Episode 18 “Making justice & healing synonymous” w/ Marlee Liss is now ✨LIVE✨ LINK IN BIO 🎧 On todays episode I got to interview the beautiful Marlee Liss. Marlee is a survivor of a rape that occurred in 2016. Because of her experience Marlee decided she wanted to make a difference, she is now a Sacred Sensuality Coach & Restorative Justi…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 17 "ICONfidence w/ Sarah Foley
1:06:45
1:06:45
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:06:45
Season 2, Episode 17 “ICONfidence” w/ Sarah Foley is now ✨LIVE✨ LINK IN BIO 🎧 I had the honor to sit down with this badass, strong and inspiring women Sarah Foley, also known as Vertical Blonde! She is the epitome of getting back up when you have been knocked down! In 2012 Sarah was in a horrible ATV accident that left her paralyzed from the waist …
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 16 "Parenting Safe Children" w/ Feather Berkower
57:38
57:38
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
57:38
Season 2, Episode 16 “Parenting Safe Children” w/ Feather Berkower is now ✨LIVE✨ LINK IN BIO 🎧 I got the pleasure to sit down with this awesome women Feather who is a LCSW, author, and advocate, and have an in depth, honest and educational conversation. Feather Berkower is theFounder of @parentingsafechildren. She is a licensed clinical social work…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 15 "Baby Be Brave" w/ Michelle McManus
1:05:47
1:05:47
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:05:47
Season 2, Episode 15 “Baby Be Brave” w/ Michelle McManus is now ✨LIVE✨ LINK IN BIO 🎧 We’re back!! We took a break from podcasts for a bit, but we’re back now excited and ready to share more amazing and inspiring episodes. We have incredible guests and stories coming up that I’m so excited to share. So today let’s start with this inspiring one that …
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 14: "Carried by grace" w/ Allie Whitworth
51:56
51:56
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
51:56
In today’s episode I sat down with this beautiful and inspiring momma, Allie Whitworth. Allie was married to her high school sweet heart Cale, until everything changed a year and a half ago when he unexpectedly lost his life at just 27 years old while recovering from the flu. They had two daughters together and new baby boy who was only 6 months ol…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 13: Silent no more w/ my LA girls
1:28:20
1:28:20
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:28:20
In this episode I got to see down with 5 amazing women! Cassie Scerbo, Seak Smith, Amber Rose which of who have all already been guests on my podcast and are here for amazing support. Then we have two new amazing women that I’ve had a chance to meet because of Cassie! Brittany Sugarman and Alexa Mey. Brittany and Alexa talk about their experience w…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 12: "Grace And Grit" w/ Nola Hayes
44:55
44:55
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
44:55
I got to sit down with my friend Nola Hayes. Nola is a survivor of child sexual abuse by a family member, sexual assault, she's an activist and the co founder of the podcast "Sex, Love and you". She is also an actress, dancer and the social media director for the Do good bus. In this episode Nola talks about how she didn't remember her trauma until…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 11: "Deceived and trafficked" w/ Jose Alfaro
1:32:23
1:32:23
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:32:23
On this episode I got to sit down with my friend Jose. Jose is a Human Trafficking Survivor, Public Speaker, Author, Advocate and Activist. Jose was physically and sexually abused as a child. He did not have the love and support of his parents or family because he was "too feminine" and later came out as gay, and his father strongly disapproved. Wh…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 10: "20 years silent... until now" w/ Zach Deardorff
52:24
52:24
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
52:24
In this episode I sat down with one of my brothers closest friends, Zach Deardorff. Zach is a survivor of child sexual abuse at the hands of his own brother. 1 in 6 boys are sexually abused or assaulted, and unfortunately Zach falls into that statistic. He talks about how he was trapped in a life of abuse with no one to count on and protect him inc…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 9: "Unapologetically me” a w/ Kay Jenkins
50:34
50:34
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
50:34
Todays episode is with the beautiful Kay Jenkins. On this episode Kay and I dive deep into her life, how she grew up and the traumatic events that changed her life and made her who she is today. On the outside Kay is a beautiful, fit, confident and an independent strong women. She is a top real estate agent here in Utah, a business consultant, life…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 8: "It starts with love" w/ Kenny Akers
50:00
50:00
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
50:00
I got to sit down with Kenny Akers. Kenny is a black man that has recently been known in Utah because back in June he stopped and gave a powerful speech to the looters who were robbing and destroying a 7-11. He spoke to them and gave them empathy and understanding, but all while teaching them this isn't the right way to handle the situation. Kenny …
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 7: "Finding the beauty in my broken" w/ Ashley Simpson
58:37
58:37
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
58:37
In this episode I got to interview my friend Ashley Simpson. Ashley is a survivor of child sexual abuse from her step father as well. We have similar stories except Ashley has had to unfortunately deal with the backlash from her family after she reported her truth once she was an adult. Her family including her own mother, chose to side with her pe…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S 2, Ep 6: "Learning to love me" w/ Paige Watts
53:25
53:25
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
53:25
In this episode I sat down with my girl Paige Watts. Paige is a social media influencer and digital creator! Paige is in front of the camera often and comes across as having confidence in her beauty, but what people don't know or see is the struggle she deals with on the inside. Paige has struggled with body dysmorphia, anxiety and other mental hea…
…
continue reading
Hey everyone! On this weeks episode I have 3 of my friends here with me. I have Tamika, Lisi, Jordyn and myself. We are all have different colors of skin and are all different nationalities, such as African American, Polynesian, Caucasian and Latina. I thought it would be a good idea to get all of our perspectives on our thoughts about the black li…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S2, Ep 4: “This is my truth, not my fault" w/ Keelan Ramos
1:07:35
1:07:35
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:07:35
This is one of my favorite episodes to date! In this episode my beautiful friend Keelan talks about the horrific ordeal that occurred in October 2018 while she was abroad with some friends to Portugal. Keelan tells the story of how her last night there turned into a complete nightmare when she woke up in a brothel type setting with dozens of men ar…
…
continue reading
Amber Rose is a survivor of sex trafficking! When amber was 17 she was forced into the sex trafficking business by someone she knew. Listen to Amber tell the story of her experience, how she escaped and what she has done to start to heal. 💜 So make sure you LISTEN AND SHARE SHARE SHARE! Also don’t forget to SUBSCRIBE to the podcast so you know when…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S2, Ep 2: “My Second Chance" W/ Brittany Piper
1:12:45
1:12:45
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
1:12:45
On this episode Brit tells her story of how the unexpected death of her older brother turned her world upside down. In the midst of her downfall Brittany was brutally raped by a stranger on the side of the road. Her story made national news. She then talks about how she changed her life around and how she got to where she is today. Brittany is now …
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
S2, Ep 1: “This season we got our shit together... hopefully"
53:40
53:40
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
53:40
My team and I sit down and recap on season 1, update you on our personal life, talk about the effects of the pandemic and tell you about SOME of what's to come in season 2. You don't want to miss this episode. Season 2 is going to be SO GOOD. Make sure you subscribe so you're updating on when new episodes come out and follow me on instagram @candle…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
17. Cassie Scerbo- Actress/VP for Boo2Bullying
38:39
38:39
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
38:39
Catch my interview with the beautiful and amazing Cassie Scerbo. Cassie is a actress best known for her roles in Make it or break that was on ABC family, Nova from Sharknado and most recently Grand Hotel. Thats just to name a few. Cassie is not only a talented actress and singer, but she is an activist and the Vice President for the organization Bo…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
16. Surviving His Suicide w/ Natalie Zoie Hansen
45:16
45:16
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
45:16
I got to sit down with Natalie Hansen who is 20 year old beautiful and thriving model, but unfortunately she has had to do it without her dad. When Natalie was 14 years old she and her family were left devastated when she lost her father to suicide in a public setting. Natalie was one of the last people to speak to him. After losing her dad Natalie…
…
continue reading
Stef Illif is a self coach, single momma of two and a CEO power house. She's also a recovering binge eater, addict, self sabotager, shame bully perfectionist who used her biggest mistake to help her wake up and find self love, self discipline and self worth. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
14. The knowledge of Trauma & EMDR w/ Dr. Beall
45:08
45:08
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
45:08
Listen to me sit down and talk to Dr. Beall. Dr. Beall is the director of Utahs trauma trauma center and has been since 1994. He has PHD in psychology and specializes in trauma and EMDR. He has worked in the truama field for over 30 years. Listen to him answer our questions and give us knowledge of trauma and EMDR.--- Support this podcast: https://…
…
continue reading
AnnaLynne McCord is an American actress best known for her role in 90210 and Nip Tuck. On this episode AnnaLynne talks about the secret she had deep inside for over 30 years, a secret she didn't even know or remember until last year. She talks about how it turned her world upside down and how she has, and continues to use her pain for good. For the…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
12. The Courage To Heal w/ Tessa Danielle
57:36
57:36
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
57:36
Tessa is a close and long time friend of Desi who actually has a very similar story to Desi as well. She was sexual abused by her adoptive/step father from around 13 years old to 17. After she reported him, her whole family including her own mother disowned and shamed her. This episode tells the story of how she survived and conquered it all with n…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
11. Stronger Than My Anxiety- Caleb Herrera
25:16
25:16
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
25:16
Caleb come on for a short episode and talks about his struggle with anxiety and depression at just 18 years old but it all started when he was a child. He had a hard time with it last year but talks about what he's learned and what has helped him. Thank you Caleb for being vulnerable and sharing your story. --- Support this podcast: https://podcast…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
10. “Darkness Before Dawn” w/ Alex Rodriguez
51:58
51:58
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
51:58
“Darkness Before Dawn” with Alex Rodriguez is now available!! You guys, seriously this is a good one! Go listen to this amazing story of resilience and surviving losing not only one, but TWO of the most important people in your life (one being your husband) to suicide only within 20 days apart!! Then surviving her own horrible thoughts of suicide! …
…
continue reading
On todays episode I was lucky to have an old friend of mine on! Her name is Chalyn and we actually worked together at a treatment center about 5 years ago. This episode she talks about the healing process that she's been going through since she was young with an eating disorder, distorted image issues and trauma. She actually went to treatment last…
…
continue reading
The newest update on Desi's story. We thought it was over but this is something that none of us expected. Now the triggers and court process she has to go through once again and the road to healing. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support
…
continue reading
Listen to myself, my mom and our friend Val talk about how labels and bullying from when they were growing up, STILL affect them today and how even as adults labels make an impact. Have fun listening to 3 Latina's laugh, but still discuss this serious issue. You will laugh, cringe and maybe even shed some tears but lets shed light on how negative l…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
6. Truth about my eating disorder and more
46:13
46:13
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
46:13
Details of my ED and some advice on how to recognize if someone you know is struggling with one. Also I provide resources for help! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support
…
continue reading
Most of you know her from her previous reality tv show on E called Pretty Wild. She was known for her part in the Hollywood scandal The Bling Ring. Alexis Haines is now about 8 years sober, a mom, a wife, a doula and she has her very own podcast called "Recovering from reality" She was so fun to talk to and I'm excited for you all to hear this epis…
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
4. You took my childhood but you won't take my future
45:43
45:43
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
45:43
I finish up my story and talk about my marriage and where I am now. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support
…
continue reading
![Artwork](/static/images/128pixel.png)
1
3. If mommy can’t see you, she can’t protect you!
59:49
59:49
Play later
Play later
Lists
Like
Liked
59:49
This episode is a little different. On this episode I talk with other moms about fears, miscarriages, mom guilt and more.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support
…
continue reading
Part 2 of my story --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support
…
continue reading
Chapter one of my story. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candleinadarkroom/support
…
continue reading