This podcast started out as a self help podcast for moms trying to find balance in motherhood and business but morphed into a documentation of Crystal and Sean Escobar's journey out of the Mormon church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints). The Podcast has been therapeutic on so many levels for its hosts. They vulnerably share their pitfalls and triumphs as they work to deconstruct a lifetime of indoctrination from the LDS church which they exited in the Spring of 2018. Sexual s ...
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Two-time WWE Hall of Famer Sean "X-Pac" Waltman presents the latest episode of Pro Wrestling 4 Life every Thursday afternoon! Each episode features Waltman talking the top pro wrestling news of the week, looking back at some of his career highlights, chatting with his famous pro wrestling friends and welcoming some of his fans on for fun and games! For more Pro Wrestling 4 Life content please subscribe to the Pro Wrestling 4 Life Patreon page!
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Ep #161: 1 Year No Social Media {Life Update}
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It’s been almost one year since I last recorded a podcast and since I stopped posting on social media. This wasn’t necessarily intentional by the way. My plan was to take the summer off from everything so I could focus a little more on other things for a while. But when September rolled around I found myself not wanting to come back to podcasting a…
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Ep #160: Season's Ending, New Beginnings, & Letting Go
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Seasons come, seasons go… switch things up and ride the flow. Being consistent with what you’re doing in pursuit of your goals does not mean you do the same thing every day. You must learn how to align with the seasons & switch things up in order to experience FLOW. When each season comes to a close we tend to experience momentary boredom or even a…
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Let’s take a look at your symptoms, physical AND mental. Do you have any pain in your body? Extra weight? Skin conditions, thinning hair? Are you dealing with any anxiety or depression? What ever the symptom is, there is always a root cause and that’s what I hope tonights class can help you identify. With my rash I explored all potential causes. Th…
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Ep #158: Lose Yourself | Post Explant Surgery Mindset
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Not gonna lie, seeing my smaller chest for the first time was emotional. I broke down in tears, but quickly shifted back to acceptance. Now I see them as an elegant beauty rather than hot sexy. Both versions are awesome, so I'm choosing to embrace my new look. Focusing on what was gained rather than what was lost. They don’t look perfect, but even …
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Ep #157: Organize Your Mind & Your LIFE
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One of my specialties is organizing. It’s something I’m naturally good at, but also something I often promote because of the incredible benefits it can have on the brain. Having things neat and orderly is extremely important to me. My kids don’t always love it though. I try to impress upon them the benefits of a clean room and a made up bed, but th…
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Ep #156: Creativity for Problem Solving & Manifesting More of What You Want
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When we hear the word creative, we often think of artsy people who spend their days painting or writing songs and poetry. But creativity is one of THE most powerful energies we can all access. This energy is not just for the people who we deem as creatives, but it’s available to ALL of us. Not for the sole purpose of creating art per se, but it can…
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Ep #155: Explant Surgery | Saying Goodbye to my Boobs in PURSUIT of Health
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In 2 weeks I am officially bidding my boobies farewell. It's been an extremely emotional decision but I'm ready to let them go in pursuit of better health. As many of you know I've been struggling with skin issues for years. This last fall I had an alarming outbreak that caused me to look deeper into what might have contributed to this horrific ras…
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Ep #154: My Addiction to the "Sean Drug" | Codependency & Self Worth
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I didn’t know I was codependent until about 2 years ago when Sean "Ferberized" me. For most of our marriage Sean was my source of feeling good about myself. He always made me feel loved, cherished, sexy, safe, and valued. I’d often say, "boy Sean, I wish I could just see myself through your eyes". It’s like pure ecstasy to be loved and seen by Sean…
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Ep #153: Making Peace w/ Relationships That Have Ended
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We've all had our fair share of painful relationships and break ups. What if we could talk to the higher self version of the person we "broke up" with. I imagined us high fiving back stage somewhere. Congratulating each other on a job well done. “Out standing performance” I say. You really taught me some valuable lessons. That all felt so real. I w…
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I have some confessions to make… For some reason the podcast feels like a safer space to be more open and raw. Maybe because I know that the people who take the time to listen are the ones who truly resonate with what I'm sharing. So you listeners, thank you! I’ve attempted to be real open and raw on Facebook and Instagram and it didn’t always go o…
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Ep. #151: Depression | DEEP REST from the Character You're Trying to Play
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"Depression is your body saying, fuck you. I don't want to be this character anymore. I don't want to hold up this avatar you've created in the world. It's too much for me." ~Jim Carrey Everything was going great, I was on top of the world, ready to take on 2023... Then I saw her coming my way, I tried to hide so she couldn’t see me. I ducked, I pr…
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Ep #150: Is Your Brain a Dog or a Cat?
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We often hear people describe our inner chaos and continuous thoughts as our “monkey minds”. But tonight I want to teach you about your Dog Brain. Allow me to explain… So the dog brain. Let’s call it a Golden Retriever. Golden retrievers are a breed of dog that we know are highly intelligent and for many reasons are the dog of choice as the star in…
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Ep #149: How to QUIT Sugar, Alcohol, or Coffee
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I’ve attempted to quit plenty of things over my lifetime, as we all have. But ever since 2020 I’ve discovered an entirely new level of discipline. It’s like something suddenly clicked in my brain and I was able to conquer many of my addictions, cravings, and urges. Things I’ve kicked since 2020, sugar, gluten, coffee, alcohol, pizza, chocolate, my …
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I love this time of year! It's the time to COLLECTIVELY reflect on the previous year, and set our intentions for the new year. We often hear people say, "you don't need to wait until the new year to start making resolutions." I agree, it's good to take inventory throughout the year, pivot when needed, and continuously ignite your enthusiasm when it…
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Ep #147: Navigating Difficult Emotions During the Holidays
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This time of year, although magical, can also be an extremely difficult time for many. For various reasons it can trigger unresolved childhood trauma, loneliness, and of course financial stress and overwhelm. So my intention for tonights call is to hold space for the loneliness, trauma, and stress, as we gently direct our focus towards healing, gro…
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Ep. #146: How to SIMPLIFY Your Life | When it all becomes too much
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The amount of decisions we need to make each day has only continued to increase over the past couple centuries. Think of the amount of choices we are presented with each day. Instead of having to choose between 2 or 3 options, we now have hundreds of different options in every category imaginable. Food, entertainment, drinks, clothing, skincare, ca…
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Ep #145: Don't Take Your Personality Personally
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Don't take your personality personally, it's not you. You are the watcher, the observer, the director... Like a scientist, you learn through the experimentation of things. You are not the rat. You are gaining insights by watching the rats and how they respond and interact.By Crystal Escobar
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Ep #144: How to turn your DREAMS into REALITY
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When I was about 21 years old I remember telling one of my friends about my crazy life as a child. She said to me, “wow, you’re going to write a book some day”. That ONE comment sparked a tiny little flame of belief in myself. I never would have expected anyone to say something like that to me. I always believed that I wasn’t very smart. We moved a…
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Ep #143: I Want it NOW! | Delayed Gratification
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Let’s talk about the marshmallow experiment, except we are going to use eggs instead of marshmallows . Are you a one (instant gratification) or 2 (delayed gratification) kinda person? Don’t forget to join me live on Facebook, Thursday (6:00pm MST) night for our monthly MINDSET call. Also check out my recent YouTube video sharing how I chose what to…
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Spent some time over the weekend reading journal entries from when I was in highschool. It’s so fun for me to look back on the person I was then. To visit the 16-18 year old version of me. Lots of thoughts come to my mind. Wondering how differnt I might have been as a teen if I understood my emotions. I had no clue the effect hormones were having o…
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Ep #141: Relationship Talk and Update on Life After Mormonism
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Uploading more bite sized episodes, sharing pieces of some of my recent coaching sessions. The kids are back in school and I've been joyously working on my schedule, routines, and time management. Speaking of which, I'm now offering a 4 week one on one Time Management package for $111. I will help you plan out your time in a way that creates more b…
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The ALL or NOTHING mentality is a cognitive distortion that results in depressions, anxiety, procrastination, binging, and completely sabotaging your progress. It's a black and white way of thinking, perfectionist syndrome, causing you to see reality in extremes. It's good or it's bad... Right or wrong... Success or complete failure... Where does t…
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Indulgences are not bad, it's all about finding a healthy balance and taking breaks from these things for a period of time in order to reset and gain even more control over your urges and cravings. Here's a new video Sean and I recorded, talking about the ER Shred being the perfect Dopamine Reset and how this can be a useful tool in other areas of …
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Ep #138: Things are shifting for ALL of us...
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New season of life… We are all finding ourselves in a new season, unlike anything we’ve ever experienced before. A lot of uncertainty and unknowns can feel pretty scary. I hear yah. The last 4-5 years has caused me to do a lot of soul searching and introspection. Unearthing all kinds of things about myself that I was completely unaware of. It’s bec…
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There will always come a time in life when we have to say goodbye... Relationships... Homes... Religion, community, neighborhood... Impermanence is the very nature of life. Music by: Bensound.comBy Crystal Escobar
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I'm all about feeling better not only physically, but feeling better holistically. MIND 🧠 BODY 💪🏼 & SOUL 🧘♀️ Let me walk you through how I coach myself through various things that I struggle with myself. Submit your questions: https://tinyurl.com/2p8fc2hf Print out your worksheet. https://tinyurl.com/2p975h86…
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Innocently many of us believe that our life circumstances are what make us feel good or bad, happy or sad, angry or peaceful. I used to believe that my happiness came from other people's love and appreciation for me, or when you make a lot of money, or when you reach your goal weight, are from being in a loving relationship. We grow up learning tha…
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"I don't know..." Is that a statement we should learn to get comfortable with? Is it the way to creative flow? Or is it a statement the BLOCKS the creative flow? A way of giving up? Or is it surrendering to the higher power within us? Depends on how YOU want to interpret it. It has everything to do with the meaning you put behind it. You can say, "…
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Ep. #133: No Shame, No Blame, Life is a Game
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Some guilt crept up in me the other day as I was remembering something. I realized I had yet to resolve this in my mind. My goal is to be extra attentive each time a past memory or thought comes into my mind and it causes a low vibe emotion. I want to gather all the pieces to the story and see if I can rewrite it. I still hold guilt for Owen’s ear.…
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My skin, my greatest teacher. I used to believe my skin was my greatest enemy. Like it’s role in my life was to torture me and make me feel insecure. At one point I even believed it was God’s way of keeping me humble. I don’t want to hide my imperfections anymore. I don’t even want to SEE them as imperfections. I realized I’m causing my own stress …
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I remember back when I was really actively pursing my goal to grow my Instagram following. How much anxiety, stress, jealousy, and overwhelm I felt on a DAILY basis. Often times I would wish I could let it all go. I honestly felt trapped in my own mind about it. For so many reasons I thought letting go was not an option. I thought… I’ve invested to…
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The other day I found myself TRIGGERED by something and wanted to share my process in coaching myself through it. Triggers can show us where our attention is needed. What is unresolved within our subconscious. It's an opportunity for us to do an investigation and it can actually be a lot of fun. Like solving a mystery. You follow the breadcrumbs to…
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Ep #129: Raising Your Emotional Frequency
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Our theme this year is Discover YOU in 2022 and I believe the best way to self discovery is through our EMOTIONS. As we get to know our feelings and where they are coming from, we get to know ourselves. We are always saying things like… “I didn’t like the vibe I got from that person… or… what a great vibe this place has… or… we just weren’t vibing …
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Little did I know that my initial breakdown/breakthrough would last almost 4 years before I began making sense of things and feeling put back together. The interesting thing though is that it really feels as if I’m putting pieces of myself together but not using any of the old pieces. Like putting a puzzle together that is completely blank. Every p…
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Ep #127: FOMO | Fear of Missing Out {on social media}
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Over the break I tried something new... I made a goal to go an entire week without reading books or consuming content via podcasts, audible, and YouTube. I know this seems like a silly goal, but one thing I realized is that I have an addiction to seeking answers outside of myself. I've identified where my addiction to information began and I believ…
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I believe we are all vulnerable to unhealthy cult like structures. They come in many forms. Not all cults are necessarily bad, but in my opinion, many of them have unhealthy practices that can lead us down a path of even more separation rather than community. In this episode I explain how I've been influenced by cult like structures in ways that ha…
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There's no doubt Sean has achieved tremendous success in which I'm so grateful for, proud of, and inspired by. But admittedly, there has been a part of me that resents his success when I compare myself to him. I've spent over a decade trying to build the same kind of success, but in my own unique way. In some ways I'm very proud of what I've create…
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Explaining where I've been the past few weeks.By Crystal Escobar
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Sean and Nick Hausman start this week by talking AEW and WWE going head-to-head this Friday night, WWE NXT's median viewership age being 62, Kenn Doane joining the WWE PC as a coach, AJ Mendez returning to pro wrestling, moreThen, Vampiro joins to discuss his time in Wrestling Society X with Sean, their work in Mexico, Lucha Underground pulling fro…
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Welcome to Episode 28 of Pro Wrestling 4 Life!Sean "X-Pac" Waltman and Nick Hausman start this week by discussing the fallout from the WWE Draft!Then, WWE NXT Superstar Santos Escobar joins to talk about WWE NXT 2.0, struggling to win his legendary luchadore father's approval, the formation of Legado Del Fantasma, learning from Triple H and Shawn M…
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Paul Walter Hauser & Wrestlenomics' Brandon Thurson
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Welcome to Episode 27 of Pro Wrestling 4 Life!Sean "X-Pac" Waltman and Nick Hausman start this week by discussing AJ Styles and Riddle's match on WWE RAW, Damian Priest's breakout rookie year, and more!Then, Paul Walter Hauser joins to discuss becoming one of Hollywood's top character actors, how his pro wrestling fandom started, recently training …
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Our motto this year is really been about letting go and letting it flow. So this week on the podcast I wanted to elaborate more on that topic since I feel that has been such a big part of our experience lately. 2020 has really turned out to be a gift in many ways. Mostly because it has presented us with the opportunity to practice our “letting go” …
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Welcome to Episode 26 of Pro Wrestling 4 Life!Sean "X-Pac" Waltman and Nick Hausman start this week by discussing Sean's experience this past weekend at GCW: Highest In The Room, Ron Funches match with Tony Deppen, AEW presenting Kenny Omega vs Bryan Danielson on free TV, and more!Then, ROH star Brody King joins to talk about meeting Sean early in …
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