Late Night Confessions: A Trilogy (Part 1) - The The, Schizomanic, Fragmentation, Ani Difranco, Dilate, Righteous Babe Records, Henry Rollins, 2.13.61, John Gorka, Leonard Cohen, Fixed Delusions (#4)

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• Bluer Than Midnight (Save Me)
• The The
• Matt Johnson
• Cognitive Dissident - The The video
• Schizoaffective disorder causes and symptoms
• What is fragmentation?
• Circle Of Fifths
• Ani Difranco
• Dilate
• Fixed delusions
• Righteous Babe Records
• Henry Rollins
• 2.13.61
• Henry Spoken Word - Everything
• Preventing repetitive strain injury
• Robert Camassa
• CYBC Radio
• John Gorka
• Leonard Cohen
• Jack’s Crows
• Silence by John Gorka
• Where The Bottles Break by John Gorka
• Old Futures Gone
• Bob Dylan
• Inside Job - Full documentary on the Financial Crisis 2008
• Ani Difranco on Broadway
• Dirt being released July 13th
• Wanting More being released July 13th
• Let You Down being released July 23rd
• Need help?

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Chapters

1. Welcome to late night confessions. Can't sleep. (00:00:00)

2. Save Me (Bluer Than Midnight Lyrics - The The) (00:01:36)

3. Sleep vs. schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type. Sleep schedule. (00:02:06)

4. Sharing part of my story since they can only kill you once. (00:03:07)

5. Mastering the live studio album. Focus. Concentration. Forcing myself to record, mix, and do this podcast is helping. (00:03:23)

6. Spoken word album in 2014. Couldn't get it right. My focus was deteriorating. (00:04:27)

7. Feeling robbed from mental illness is a terrible thing. (00:05:14)

8. Being younger and moving or leaving constantly. Slowly fragmenting. (00:05:57)

9. Schizoaffective disorder hit hard in my teens. High school, college for music, met some of my band members. (00:06:17)

10. Crap jobs. Always independent. Doing things my way. Angry and had problems in school starting at 10 years old. (00:08:52)

11. Late teens, met a fellow local artist who was a lesbian and we became friends. Discusing my first crush at 5 years old and being enamored by the beauty of women. (00:09:38)

12. I felt comfortable with myself and never cared if others were gay or not. Never understood why some people struggled or had issues with that. (00:10:44)

13. We hung out and wrote some stuff. She had a nice voice but said she was jealous of my ability with words. (00:11:08)

14. She ended up wanting more from me but I just wasn't attracted to her. (00:12:16)

15. Discussing women and my mom calling me Elvis when I was young because I'd come home with love letters from girls at school. Grateful. (00:12:37)

16. She ended up ghosting me after I told her I wasn't interested. Bummer since I enjoyed her company. (00:13:10)

17. Years later, met a lesbian couple and put out an album on my indie label from one of them. Went to a party and she was there and ended up marrying a man. (00:13:57)

18. The thing she gave me that stayed with me was an introduction to Ani Difranco. (00:15:10)

19. I immediately was blown away. I've seen Ani perform more than any other artist. Masculinity and being the only man in the audience. (00:15:24)

20. First album I heard was Dilate, which I immediately loved. The guitar work. The lyrics. One of the best albums of all time imo. (00:16:06)

21. I don't Ani she gets the credit she deserves as a guitarist. She's an incredible guitarist. (00:17:11)

22. Her lyrics are great, minus the political stuff for me. I can't promote either side of this crap-show but artists SHOULD do what they believe in. (00:17:26)

23. I hate all politics and politicians and think something far more evil is going on but that could be my own paranoia. (00:18:03)

24. No trust for the government. Fixed delusions and chatter in my mind. (00:19:01)

25. Indie record labels. Righteous Babe (Ani), 2.13.61 (Henry Rollins). Music business classes and working with a truly great man. (00:19:18)

26. My record label, coding, and learning to do it all on my own. Logic and creativity. Digital distribution. (00:21:58)

27. First spoken word album and trying to understand my own head. Often, crazy people don't know they're crazy. (00:24:06)

28. My band, playing shows, fun times. (00:25:36)

29. Night before my wedding, my best friend, business partner, and drummer died. (00:26:16)

30. I was numb and decided to live for him because he wasn't going to get the chance. (00:27:33)

31. Alcohol, tried other drummers but nothing felt right. Not sure what to do. (00:28:03)

32. New material, our band's writing process, and respect. (00:28:49)

33. Acoustic album. Different but fun. Always preferred the acoustic guitar, even with the band. Hooked on guitar. (00:30:13)

34. 7 year breakup from guitar. Played piano. Back to guitar and surprised I could still play. (00:31:23)

35. 20 songs! Overplayed. Excess. Ended up with an injury. Therapy. (00:31:58)

36. Things were getting worse in my head and I wasn't talking about it. The battle of good and evil. Sacred music. (00:33:22)

37. Hoping to make a living but never cared about money or fame. Cared about independence and freedom. Too defiant and I was not about to be controlled. (00:35:12)

38. People enjoying your art is a nice feeling. Spoken word allows me to get so much out. (00:35:43)

39. Put out the acoustic album and instantly hated it and my voice. Judgment. Re-listening. Working the voice. Teaching. Left mental health. (00:36:29)

40. Crossroads. Marriage was failing. Wanted to sell it all and tour. John Gorka. Jack's Crows. Silence. Leonard Cohen. Folk and acoustic music. (00:38:38)

41. Seeing John Gorka perform and meeting him. Old Future's Gone. Nice smooth voice. (00:41:24)

42. Ani and connections to other artists and voices. Sell everything and tour but feeling more sick and then, Wall Street stole all my equity. My plan was falling apart. (00:42:34)

43. It was getting worse. Harder to be consistent. Therapist. Broadway. Coincidences. (00:44:42)

44. Part two coming soon. (00:46:30)